It feels like I just woke up
Like I've been living in a dream
Deja vu messing up my daily life
Lucid dreams keeping me from walking
And paralysis keeping me down
But I - I - I
Keep fighting
To find the power within me
Nothing to keep me going
Not feeling the push
That they are giving me
Not ever going to think
Not feeling that expired
I'm just sitting here
It's raining outside and I feel nothing inside
Just wishing for a little sunshine
To feel the sun on my face
But it's all gone
I wished it goodbye as I grew up
Rape, molestation, abuse, neglected
What am I to this whole world
Now I feel the cold sweat of death
Breathing down the back of my neck
Hoping to get my drivers license
Just to drive away from all of my problems
Because I don't want to face her again
She keeps appearing in my nightmares
I have nothing left inside of me
It feels like I just woke up
Like all this time I've been sleeping
But I'm never dreaming about you
It's always going to be about you
I have nothing to keep me going
Always holding me back
Always keeping me held down
Am I something that means anything
Or am I a nothing that doesn't mean anything
I pictured you standing in the rain
Waiting for me to come out to you
But I shut the curtain
And then I locked the door
Blaring devastating music in my ears
Hoping that I could forget about you
But I never will
And I still never have
You're not here so I guess that you did
Here I am after a few years
You didn't want me those years
But it's not that expired
And I - I - I
Hope you feel inspired
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NO REGRETS
PoetryI put this poetry collection to look back at all the growth that I have went through throughout these years. I am so very proud of the progress that I have made and I'm very excited for where I go from here. I combined 15 poems from collections, 3 p...
