NO REGRETS

Sunrise Behind Closed Curtains - (Rainbow)

It's really hidden 

I don't want to get out of bed 

I hate trying to eat breakfast 

I already am called fat enough 

It's really dark in here 

As I'm covered up in my own blankets 

I hate that the blanket shows my stomach 

I already have to see it enough 

I keep it dark 

Even though there's a sunrise behind closed curtains 

All of my life I have slowly become more of a shut in 

Just because I fucking hate myself still 

And this is day 1,825 day of being depressed 

So I'll be right back because I gotta go cry my eyes out 

I'm trying to see the colors 

And orange is still not showing up 

I would love it to 

But for some reason I'm so color blind 

I lost myself 

I lost the rainbow 

And now there's something that I still don't know 

Can't stop watching Disney 

It's all coming down on me 

And for some reason this smile ain't coming free 

It all still just comes down on me 

I keep it dark 

Even though there's a sunrise behind closed curtains 

All of my life I have slowly become more of a shut in 

Just because I fucking hate myself still 

And this is day 1,095 day of being bulimic 

So I'll be right back because I gotta go make myself throw up 

I'm addicted to the tooth brush 

And I enjoy hacking and flushing it away 

But I can't keep it up 

Because if I do I'll have nothing left 

I'm addicted to the dark 

I keep myself covered up 

And I no longer live enough 

But I need to drop it all 

I keep it dark 

Even though there's a sunrise behind closed curtains 

All of these summer months I've been more than a shut in 

Just because I'm still learning to love myself 

And this is day 1 of being happy 

So I'll be right back because I gotta go make myself happy