My Favorite Girl

Chapter 19: Recovering in my new home

So, I have been out of the hospital for three days. I am still sore, but it's getting better. I can walk around without feeling like I'm being punched. 

Jordan has not allowed me to do anything. He makes me sit or lie down all day. He finally allowed me to walk outside today. 

We had a little spat this morning. I wanted him to make love to me earlier when we woke up, and he said no. 

I got upset, and he was very firm that until I was better and wasn't sore, that wasn't happening. (Flashback)

"I'm not going to end up hurting you, Sam; just be respectful."

"Jordan, that part of me wasn't injured. The rest of me is sore."

"Baby, please don't make this harder on me. I don't like telling you no, and the lord knows I would never turn that down. I am trying to be cautious, sweetheart; you were in a coma for like five days."  

"I see how it's going to be; we are an official couple now, and now you don't want to sleep with me. I figured this would mean I could have you whenever I wanted, but guess not."

"Samantha, stop acting like that. Being official and living together does mean you can have me anytime you want me once you are better. Or I'm on tour; I mean, I can always fly you out to whatever city I'm in and make sweet sensual love to you."

"Yet, me being right here, in our house, in your arms, and you say no."

"Because I am trying to look out for you. Please don't for one second think I do not want you because I do, but I'm not going to cave into my wants. At least not until you are better. Do you even have a clue how bad I want you?"

"No,"

He pulled the covers up, "Do you feel this? This is what you do to me, just thinking about making love to you."

"I'm sorry, Jordan. Me and my stupid temper tantrums when I don't get my way."

He caressed my cheek, "No need to be sorry, sweetheart. I love the fact that you tell me when you want me. I just want you to understand me saying not right now isn't because I don't want you. It's because I want you to be better because I can't promise to go slow. You scared the shit out of me when I found out you had been in an accident. My fear was I would never be able to tell you that I am completely and totally in love with you."

"Let's hope that you will make love to me before you leave on tour. I have wanted you since I woke up and saw you standing there. Jordan, I was scared of my feelings for you, but after the accident, I want you to know how I feel about you. I love you; that is really hard for me to say. The last time I said those words, my world crashed down on me. I am trusting you with my body, heart, and soul."  

"Baby, I know that. Trust me when I say I will guard your body, heart, and soul with everything in my power. Please know the reason I'm saying no is because I love you. If I didn't love you and care for you, I probably would have fucked your ass in the hospital. Since I do care for you so much, I'm going to be patient. This will be our first time since we became official last week. This will be different for both of us because now we are together."  

"Okay, thank you for being so understanding with my childish ways. When we finally do make love, I am going to give you all of me. I just hope it will be before you leave."

"No matter what, our night together will be magical. Right now, let's pretend we have never slept together. Date like normal people; they don't normally end up in bed on their first date. Normally, a guy takes his time, so starting right now, let me take my time romancing you. I don't care if you are still sore when I leave next week, then when you finish your job in LA, I will fly you to my show. We will get a motel room and have one hell of a magical night."