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𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘳𝘢𝘭

𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘴𝘵 (𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯)
𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘬𝘧𝘤 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘶𝘱
𝘨𝘰𝘫𝘰 𝘱𝘰𝘷
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its been two weeks, three days, 5 hours and 26 minutes since you left me.

left me alone on that street.

i haven't been feeling well.

i have stopped eating as much. i don't sleep as often because of the thought of you.

im going insane.

i need you here.

i can't be without you much longer suguru.

i just can't.

every day i go into your dorm, expecting you to greet me with that soft smile of yours.

but you're never there.

i make you food when we're about to eat, i even set down a plate for you.

and then i start to sob just remembering that you aren't here anymore.

i expect that wave from you whenever i'm back from my solo missions.

then i remember...

you aren't here anymore.

im losing my mind.

i go to your dorm at night, going to go cuddle with you.

and all that greets me is a pile of dust and forgotten memories.

where are you suguru?

i need you here.

here in my arms.

if you're not here, then who's there to take care of me?

you were the only person who cared for me.

made me feel like something else besides the strongest.

what's the point of being the strongest if you're not on my side?

what's the point if i couldn't even save you?

every day. every fucking day i am one step closer from going absolutely insane.

i haven't had my infinity on ever since.

no one even touches me anyway. its not like i want them to either way.

i can tell people have been worrying about me.

shoko has tried to get me to talk about it, but i just refuse.

i don't want to talk about this spiral that i'm going through.

i write about you constantly. i paint you almost every day so i won't forget your face.

i hope for at least a text from you. i stare at my phone for hours, just waiting.

then i remember you blocked my number.

i just want to hug you again suguru.

please, come back.

i just... can't do this without you.

i want you to hold me in your arms again, hold my face, kiss me and say you love me one last time.

please...

please come back to me suguru.

i want you back.

i need you back.

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𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘥 <3