The distance between us

41. Crème brûlée

MAY BELLE
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I've been waiting around all day doing jack shit. I woke up around 9 and Grey was no where to be found, obviously I assume he's at work but it's a Saturday, he never usually worked Saturdays, not that I'm keeping track but that's just one of the things I noticed.

I'm still in shock from what happened last night, every time I think about it shivers run down my neck all the way to my toes. I never imagined my wildest dream would come true and yet here I am reminiscing about grinding on the only man I've ever dreamed of.

As much as I want it to happen again, as much as I want more to happen, I can't let it, I know if I continue to im going to fall head over heels, and trust me I think I'm almost there, I have been since day dot, but just one more kiss from him could send me over the edge and I don't think I'll ever be able to be saved.

He won't save me, he doesn't feel about me that way, that's why I need to make sure this never happens again...

*BANG*

My heart dropped to my stomach as the a loud bang for a door filled my ears.
I stilled in my position on the bar stool on the kitchen bench. Every hair on my body stood with fear, I felt almost frozen.
The open area was in view and I could no sign of anyone.
My forehead beamed with sweat and my palms became wetter by the second. I need to get up.

I let my jelly like legs carry me down the hall and into all the rooms, back to the kitchen, the lounge room and the study, but there was no one to be seen, and the worst part...every door in the house was open, except the front.

It had to be the wind right? Yeah I'm sure that's what it was it had to be.

"Hey"

"Ah! Omg Grey you scared me" I clutched my heart as if It'd jump from my chest at any given moment.

"Sorry snowflake, I just finished" he rubbed the back of his head as if he was nervous.

"Did you just get home?" I questioned as my arms wrapped around my chest, maybe it was him that caused the door to slam...

"Yeah just now"

The door slammed minutes ago... it's okay May I'm sure it was just the wind. I push my thoughts to the back of mind certain I was just being paranoid and began focusing on the figure in view.

"H-how was work?" I didn't know what to say or do.

"It was okay...i missed you"

My heart swelled with a feeling I often feared while my eyes dwelled with awe. If only he knew just how much I missed him too.

There were no words in the English language to explain just how much I missed him so I settled on a simple...

"Me too" I lowered my head trying to hide the blush that crawled along my already rosy face.

"Can I take you out tonight?"

He wanted to take me out, was this real?

"I- okay" i was going to argue against the idea considering the serious conversation I had with myself only a few minutes before he got here...but I couldn't...as much as I knew I needed to stay away from him I just couldn't...even if this was just a simple fling to him...it would always be better than the reality of anyone else.