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chapter 11: Jealous?

Seo jun's pov:

" Okay, oppa talk to you later byee!."saying this Haley cut the call and I was feeling like I'm gonna explode with an anger!. I don't know why I'm feeling like this bcz a few minutes ago I was really happy that I will talk to my best friend after so long. I have been really busy these two months, so I wanted to surprise her by calling Haley bcz I know these two are always together. I didn't call her bcz deliberately I wanted her get angry at me for not calling her directly. I loved it when she get angry. Bcz she rarely get mad at something.

But after watching her with another guy. I felt this sinking feeling in my stomach like I'm losing someone close to me. Why I'm feeling like this!! God!!. She's just a best friend to me then why and I should be happy that she has become more outgoing, that she's making friends now. Why can't i be happy for her.... Why I'm so angry on her if she's being closed to another guy. It's not like we are dating. God!! Why can't I take these thoughts out of my mind.

Since we have become friends , I have always had that protective feeling towards her. On that time I thought maybe she's new in this country and didn't know much about people here but when the days passed and slowly, slowly that I realized that no it's just not that. it's something more than just a friend being protective over his friend. Whenever we spent time together. She became more important to me. I never thought I would be like this, but she is different than others. I have spent all my life around girls and coming into this industry has given me enough experience.
How could I not admire such a mature girl, who knows her worth. Who loves her friends like family. She's literally taking care of Hailey like big sister. I have never seen someone so passionate. I have never seen her sad Bcz she always smiles . So I just couldn't help but to be close to her. She matters to me that's why when I get my first lead role. She was the first one I wanted to share this happiness bcz I knew she will be the happiest after knowing that and when she said that she was proud of me. Oh God I can't express how much happy those words made me .

Whenever I get sad she would always be the one to cheer me up. When I needed my college friends or others who has lived their lives with me till now, were so busy in their own lives ,
But that girl never leave my side.
How could I not be attached to her.

But on my success party. I realized a lot of things.... On that night I was waiting for her bcz after inviting to her I understood it that she was hesitating to come as she doesn't like parties especially with alcohol. Even though I already told her that the party was gonna be alcohol free but still she wasn't sure bcz I could felt by the way she talked.....But, She made it. She came and I was happier. She was with me in my success. But the things which made me realized that I was not just thinking of her as friend and it happened when sohee tried to bodyshamed her , I have never talked to my friends that rudely but when I saw reem's face which had become sad. I couldn't control myself and the second time when I saw woo shik talking and laughing with her . I felt this different feelings and trust me it wasn't a good feeling at all so I just went to her when I escaped from clingy friends who weren't leaving for a second. They were kept talking and all I was thinking about them " Were they still talking? Was she smiling at him the same way she smiles at me". These kinda thoughts so I just made some excuse and went directly there and grabbed her hand and we went lil far away from everyone. She asked me what I was doing bcz I suddenly grabbed her hand, damn!! I forget no touching rule and I quickly left her hand and asked her the first thing that was annoying me and she laughed saying I was acting like Hailey and started teasing by saying that if I was being jealous to which I immediately replied " No why would I be? he can't do anything. He can't have what's mine" And there we go. These words made her stopped from laughing and her face became red . That's when I realized what these words exactly mean. They straightly came out from my heart, when she said he can steal her from me.....