Placebo || 3Racha ✔️

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Arms wrap around my waist. Lips are pressed against the back of my shirt. "It's okay, Binnie. Everything is okay. I just thought he should know."

"No, I know."

"What is it, Bin? You can tell us."

"I think we should move." I rub my temples, falling slightly back into the embrace. "I... I love this house, but I can't stand being here. I'm sorry to suddenly drop this on you guys."

The two make eye contact with one another. Chan comes around the couch, hugging my front. "If I'm being honest, Jisung and I have been looking already. We've seen you struggling. We both hate it. I'm completely okay with moving. It wouldn't be far, but definitely out of this area. Just so you feel safe again."

"I-it's not that I don't feel safe. I do. With you two, it's really... nice."

"Hey, sometimes, we can't make you feel safe. After everything, it's understandable. It's something so unpredictable and we both want you to be able to move past this. Staying here is making it harder on you. A fresh area will be better. Don't worry about hurting our feelings. We can't protect you all the time. He was in our house once. He knows where we live. You know that he knows. You having that knowledge is enough to always put you on edge. I don't want that. A clean start is what we all need. Don't fret about it, okay? We'll figure it out."

I nod, choking back tears. I hate that they can't make me feel safe anymore. Chan's right. He got to me when they were with me, he can do it again. A new start is what I need.

"Okay." That's all I can say because if I try anything more, I'll end up sobbing. I've cried so much. I never thought a human could release so many tears.

"Bun, let's eat, yeah? You can put on a movie."

Nodding, I try to release a breath that had been stuck in my throat. The two let go of me, sending smiles of reassurance. I can't smile back, as rude as it is not to. It's impossible for me to fake it right now.

I go back to the couch, hugging my knees to my chest. I flip through different movies, my heart jumping when the horror section comes on. I click off, going to animated movies. Howl's Moving Castle, it is.

I'm not paying any attention. Chan comes back to me, sitting opposite of me. He taps me, trying to lend me affection. I shake my head. I can't do it right now. If I'm touched, I'll break.

"Baby?" Jisung asks softly, coming over to crouch in front of me. "Do-"

I clear my throat. "I'm going to go lay down."