Let You Love Me

8

~*Cai Xingyue's POV*~

It's been about two months since the situation happened. Baoshan told me they resolved the issue and even have the person in custody. She said it was Meng Yao and I told her that it did not surprise me. I knew it was him from the beginning but like anyone would believe me.

Why believe an omega like me anyway?

I don't trust them so they don't trust me, I get that. What pisses me off the most is that they assumed I would hurt my adopted nephew's children. That actually pained me, thinking I'd hurt children. I have long wanted to have a family of my own but I can't because of the trust issues that I have.

It just hurts.

Baoshan then told me that Wangji, Wuxian, their babies, and Xichen were coming to our territory. They wanted to apologize to me personally. I scoffed and told her that it will take more than an apology. Since I knew they were coming today, I went out for a run. Fengmi was angry just like I was. She felt betrayed by someone she had a strong pull towards. Shuoyue was to be her alpha and he hurt her just as Xichen hurt me.

I ran until I was in the middle of the peach blossom forest. I came across a river and laid on a large rock that was near the edge of the water. I curled up into a small ball. I didn't want to be around anyone else. I was abandoned by my real parents, and I have been constantly running from horny alphas who just want a quick bang, then I had to deal with this whole issue of being framed for something I did not do.

I soon shifted to my human form, "talk about pathetic," I mumbled and hugged my knees to my chest, "I can now see why the village I was born in hates omegas...I hate alphas and omegas, so what does that make me? A hypocrite or something?"

"Not a hypocrite, just in pain," I heard a male voice say from behind me.

I immediately stood up and my wolf was close to coming out. I looked at the man who spoke and growled, "Pack Leader Lan?!" I greeted angrily.

He sighed, "I can understand your anger towards me, but please know that I want to make it up to you somehow."

"Oh, how about you take a long walk off a short pier, that would make it up to me for sure," I growled.

"Ooff, feisty," he said and then leaned against a tree, "but I didn't come here to fight you, just to apologize."

"I told you I might kill you the next time I crossed paths with you, and now you are in my territory," I told him.

"If you wish to hurt me, I would expect nothing less," he said, "but I have to ask you one thing, even though you feel betrayed, do you really have it in you to hurt me? As you feel the mating pull when you lied and said you did not."

I scoffed, "didn't stop you from hurting me, now did it?" I asked, "and I did feel it once but I and Fengmi want nothing to do with you right now."

"What will it take for you to give me another chance?" He asked me.

"Kill Meng Yao for hurting me and I will consider it," I told him.

He was silent, "Unless it's warranted, my pack is against killing."

"Then you will not have me," I told him, "if that bastard is still alive and he somehow gets free, he will not stop because all he wants is you. I am not going to fight for you because I do not care about love or mating. I have long accepted that I belong to no one and I am best alone. It is proof of how I was treated in your territory. I am done being treated like this."

"Do you really not want to fight for me? Your true mate who you felt a pull for numerous times?" He asked.

"Why should I?!" I asked, "I barely know you. You are an alpha and I have long said that I hate alphas because they think they can do whatever they want! Why should I fight for you when you would not fight for me when I needed you? Why would I give myself to an alpha who is a Pack Leader and is wanting a good Luna to be by his side when he doesn't listen to me or trust me? Give me a reason to fight for you, because you have given me nothing in terms of fighting for me. I see better love and devotion with Wei Wuxian and his mate than I do with you. That is how I see things."

He again went silent for a moment. He looked like he was having a hard time thinking about what to say in return. He eventually spoke, "then let us hang out properly. Let us get to know each other and start over. Let us try and make things right," he said, "so far, yes you are very cautious and I understand that. You would make an amazing Luna by my side. You are headstrong and you speak how things are. You don't beat around the bush and you just get straight to the point. You know how to fight and even for someone small, you are one hell of a fireball. I felt the pull too when we first met but I didn't say anything because I knew of your background. After what happened I knew I would have to work harder to gain your trust and I still plan on it."

I sighed, "you want me as your Luna? I am pretty sure everyone in your pack is against me right now. They think I am a child abuser apparently."

"They know the truth too," he said, "it was wrong for us not to hear you out properly. We are known for our justice system and how biased we are but we just outright hurt you because our future leaders were hurt."

"When I was a child, I was hurt and abandoned, why would I go out of my way to put that on someone else?" I asked, "especially if it was my nephews children."

"I know," he said, "It was also discovered that you were drugged by a sleeping agent that night."

"Told you," I said.

"Will you try to give me a chance?" He asked.

I looked him over for a good minute before answering, "I won't say yes just yet. I need you to prove to me that you trust me and you will not go against me again."

"I can accept that," he said.