ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴᴀʟ ᴘᴏᴇᴛʀʏ ᴄᴏʟʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ :)

ᴡᴏʀᴅꜱ.

I wish I could take back my words,

Because every time I see your blocked contact I can't help but want to turn back time and fix everything between us.
Seeing your blank profile picture on my screen makes me realise that I underestimated how much I loved matching profile pictures with you,
Being childish as it is.

I wish I could take back my words,

Because I have now realised I was being selfish.
I had focused too much on my own wants, on my own attachment, that I didn't take time to listen to you.
I should've offered you comfort, rather than saying how much distance would affect me.

I wish I could take back my words,

Because now seeing you in the school corridors is like I'm playing with fate;
I can never tell when it'll be the last time I'll see you.
You come and go, and I feel stupid that I pay so much attention to your presence and absence like that.

I wish I could take back my words,

Because not being your friend anymore makes me sound obsessive,
Even though all I want to do is apologise and to have my friend back.

I wish I could take back my words,

Because you were the only person who ever offered to come over to help me through my breakdowns.

I wish I could take back my words,

Because you were the one person I will (presumably) always miss, no matter how conflicted and disoriented my mind gets.

I wish I could take back my words,

Because I'm sorry and I don't know how to say that to you.

I wish I could regain contact with you,
Instead of endlessly severing eye contact whenever we accidentally lock eyes,
Just because I feel guilty for what happened that day.

I wish I could apologise, hug you, speak to you,
Hell, I'd take anything,
Because maybe then I'd have the confirmation that you're alright.

(idk, I'm rambling but take it anyway :] I'm not sure if the "longer" format suits my dodgy style of writing, but I hope it's not much of a negative change.)

(+ and woah, avery posts more than once in a week??? especially after disappearing for a month???)