My Bodyguard

31

I woke up feeling groggy and tired.

I looked around hazily, squinting my eyes and I felt achy. My lower abdomen was hurting. It felt like a really bad cramp.

"Hey-" I turned, hearing Aarav's voice and he was stroking my head, looking at me with a small smile.

"I missed you." I mumbled, trying to turn to him but I felt sharp stinging everywhere and I noticed this wire thing that had water inside was on the back of my palm.

"I missed you too and this is nothing, don't be scared." He said kissing my cheek while I stared at the needle if I'm right.

So, I'm at the hospital?

Then, I remembered what happened.

"Why did my tummy hurt so bad? Am I sick?" I questioned, looking at him and he shakes his head, getting on the bed with me.

He softly pulled me to him and I leaned on him, nuzzling to his chest. He kept stroking my head, kissing on top of my head.

"Are you still in pain?"

"A little but not bad." I mumbled and he pulled me closer, rubbing my waist.

It looked like he was hesitating on something and I looked at him, wanting to know what is it.

"You miscarried, love." He said rubbing my back and I looked at him, not understanding.

"What does that mean?"

"You were pregnant but the baby didn't make it." I was shocked, staring at him and he kisses my cheek, making me lean on him.

"It's okay, it happens. I'm happy that you're okay." He hugged me, kissing me again and I felt dumb.

Sugar was right. I was pregnant.

How did I not know I was pregnant?

We got home later that day and I didn't know what to say. I felt numb and sad.

Since being married to Aarav, I always wanted to have kids of my own and it makes me feel bad that I didn't know I was pregnant with one.

How am I going to take care of one if I didn't realise I was pregnant?

Aarav brought me food, making me stay on the bed and he was taking care of me, handling me so gently.

I felt bad.

I feel like I'm always going to be a burden to him.

"Will I be a bad mother too?" I mumbled, fiddling with my fingers and Aarav just sat in front of me, coming close to me.

"What do you mean?"

"I didn't even know I was pregnant and it didn't survive— how can I be a good mother? What if I'm horrible and the kids don't survive because how I am?" I bursted our crying, feeling a wave of overwhelming emotions and Aarav held me in his arms, hugging me.

"Ira, this happens. It's normal and we didn't know, okay? It's not your fault. You'll never be a bad mother."

"I don't— I don't want to be like my mommy. I want our babies to be happy— I don't want them to be hurt." I clutched on him, feeling so guilty and he rubbed my back, stroking my head.

"You won't be, I know you won't. Our babies will be the happiest— you will never hurt them, Ira. We will never hurt them, I promise."

Aarav stayed with me, didn't leave my side and he had me on the bed, not letting me do anything.

Joe, Sugar and Henry came to visit me.

Sugar cried buckets, holding on to me because she was the one that noticed it first and I thanked Henry while hugging Sugar that was sobbing on me.

He really did lifted me to bring me to the hospital right away and Joe was feeling guilty because he thought he gave me a lot of work.

He really didn't.

Sugar and Henry bought me a self care basket, Joe brought me home cooked food and Joe's girlfriend, Sophie sent me flowers.

I was happy to have people that care for me and love me. I am truly blessed.

I got out of bed, walking slowly and I got downstairs, wanting to get out of the room.

But I wanted to know how Aarav is doing.

Henry told me that he was silent from the moment they took me in until I woke up. He said that Aarav didn't utter a word.

I got to the kitchen and I saw Aarav cooking dinner.

I went to him and he didn't notice me but I leaned on his back, hugging his waist.

"Hi cutie." He kissed the back of my hand, holding my hand in his and I just leaned on him, feeling like I've missed him.

"You okay, Aarav?" I mumbled, peeking at him and he glanced at me, having a small smile.

"I'm okay. Are you hungry? I'm done cooking—" I tip toed and cling to his neck, pulling him down and hugging him.

"It's okay if you're not okay, talk to me, Aarav. I'm here." I mumbled, kissing his cheek and he hugs me.

He hugged me tightly, leaning on my shoulder and he had me in that tight hug for a while, making me stroke his hair.

Aarav must've been scared.

He doesn't get scared easily but I think he was this time.

"I love you. I love you so much— don't scare me like that, love. I thought I lost you." He mumbled and it made my heart sank, feeling his sadness for the first time.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for making you upset." I apologised and I really feel bad about it.

"Can I pick you up?" I nodded my head and he picked me up, holding me gently. He let me down on the counter, pulling away from me.

"I know you're thinking that you're a nuisance or that you trouble me but you never do, Ira. You are my life, this is our life. Life has ups and downs—I just don't want to lose you. I never want that, ever." He mumbled, nuzzling on my neck and leaning on me.

I stroked his hair, understanding that he's really sad.

"I'm here, I'm always here— I love you too, Aarav. I love you so much." I teared up, kissing his cheek and hugging him.

He looks at me and kisses me, kissing me sweetly and longingly as if he missed me, afraid that I will be gone.

"We'll get through whatever it is. You're my strongest girl." He said kissing my cheek repeatedly, hugging me and I hugged him back, making myself feel better and clearing my head.

I should start being much brave and strong as he thinks I am.

"You're the reason I'm strong— you're my rock, my guy."