Angel Wings

Complicated Thoughts

My head was screwed up at this point. Hands to my face.. just trying to keep myself sane I guess. So many words are twisted I forgot why I even got encouraged to do all of this. Flying straight up just gave me a huge headache. A low sigh escapes my lips. With a glance of the horizon I stop flying and let myslef fall. I was pretty high off the ground, that might have helped. (from plumiting to my death anyways) It was hard to breathe from the velocity, but it felt good to let go. I open my eyes and fly upwards again. I do this for a few more times, also even scream at myself or to the air anyways. On my last fall something tackles me in the air.

''What do you think you're doing?'' It was Jesse. His wings were different like they had gotten a little grey, maby it was just the light.

''Commiting fake suicide, what does it look like i'm doing.'' I pushed myself away from him, I don't need any confort right now.

''Look, I now you don't want to talk about this but making yourself fall from six stories high isn't going to do anything. Aaron dosen't want you to hurt.''

He makes me stop in my tracks, ''About a month ago I wasn't an angel. He wasn't worried back then either, why should he be worried now?! So what if I can hurt? So can you and Jason, I was always going to be hurt either way but i'm not going to die. Unless you've lied about that..''

He flies closer, ''I would never lie to you. Just please try to talk to Aaron about this.''

''Can, I tell you something Jes.'' my eyes stare at the forest top.

''Sure.. Anything.'' He says.

''You know how when I cry or get mad, I always run away from the person. Always. But when it hapens with Aaron he never lets me get away.. No matter what, but he didn't stop me this time... I'm just scared I might loose him.'' I bite my tongue to hold back the tears.

''You won't... Just give him time. This is hard for him too.'' With that he flies off into the house.

I don't know what to do at this point. I fly to the edge of the woods and my house. My earbuds turn on and the world turns off.

''Is There Anybody Out There who can tell me what's going on?

Cause i don't know where to start from you said it's killing me to see all the people you've deceived just to get this far well, did you get that far?

I keep saying (that) I don't want to play this game, but the stakes are high and I am out of time.

We Break Our Bones And Spill Our Hearts For You,

We Sold Our Souls And Played Our Parts For You!

So Tell Me What Did You Expect From A Quiet Boy Like Me?

Will I Sweep You Off Of Your Feet?

We Were Born To Cause A Scene And All Your Wildest Dreams

Will Come True Tonight It All Comes True Tonight!

I Keep Saying (That) I Don't Want To Play This Game, But The Stakes Are High And I Am Out Of Time.

We Break Our Bones And Spill Our Hearts For You,

We Sold Our Souls And Played Our Parts For You!

We Won't Ever Stop,

We Won't Ever Stop Tonight.

And All The Memories, Cut So Deep The Words From Their Lips So Unrewarding.

it's getting hard to breathe when every face i see reminds me of back when we were stopping time the places that went, the summers that we shared i can't forget this now i'm wide awake!

We Break Our Bones And Spill Our Hearts For You,

We Sold Our Souls And Played Our parts For You!

We Sold Our Souls To Rock And Roll''

After about an hour of waiting, for nothing, I put my wings away and walk into my house. My head was pounding and everything seemed to be in slow motion. Alana was yelling at me, I think? She was concerned and mad at the same time. Her words made my head spin even more. Jason, Jesse, and Aaron surround me. Its hard to breathe and room closes in. Someone tries to help, but it hapens.. I faint.

*DUN DUN DUN ;3 enjoy the rest you guys♥*