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Choices

Chapter 26

Choices

I placed the bloody napkin on the table looking at it, the sensation of him being present made me drive crazy. I looked at the red colour of it, the same as my hair. The sensation of doing something crazy and not understandable was breaking me apart. I need some time to process the feelings he got me in. It was all because of him. I was feeling just alright being alone but his blood and smell was driving me crazy.

I poured some alcohol for myself to fill up the dirty thoughts that were coming every time I was thinking about him. It was nagging me, I hated the feeling inside.

The disgusted look on my skin was brushing me as his scent was still on me. The perfume of freedom, it sucks as I wanted to enslave him all. Why it felt so right?

I was lying in my bed legs spread widely as hand were under my head as I was trying to bring back the sanity whichever existed in my head. I was feeling it right. The comfort wasn't coming back.

I closed the eyes remembering the every moment he made me feel, as I threw the pillow of the floor crashing it on the carpet. It wasn't enough, the bed sheets were flying ripped to tears on the floor and the whole room was looking destroyed enough to look like something illegal happened there. I was sitting by the wall rolled in ball of angriness and discomfort trying to understand myself.

POV Felix

I woke up on my day off, deciding to take some precautions and relax a little, Han was with Minho out of town for the trip as they went hiking.

I saw he looked so good without all those one night stands and being more domestic.

I slowly jumped from bed going to make some coffee as the phone rang.

-Hi, Channie.

-Hi, how are u? Up already?

-Just woke up.

I said taking the sandwich from the fridge to fry it up.

-Okie, how is the report going?

-Almost done. I think u will find the guy fast after I finish.

-Oh, so glad to hear that. What are u doing later? Wanna coffee?

I was feeling weird as he never wanted to go out with me alone.

-With guys?

-No just 2 of us. I wanted to talk to you like 2 Aussies. U know.

I signed.

-Right, we can.

-What about 3 p.m.?

-Sound great, see u.

I ate the sandwich watching some documentary on the TV but I got waisted and angry as the characters were so bad, the medical analysis was eating me apart I was able to prognoses every step and it made me feel irritated at them.

I looked at time and rushed to take a quick shower. I threw clothes watching my body in the reflection.

I looked now much better then in past. The abs looked so defined now, I felt the satisfaction for once in a while, jumping in the shower.

The notification came.

"Why this profession?"

It was from Hyunjin and his own shit. That guy made me drive crazy in all senses as I wanted to fuck with him and imprison til the rest of his days, that was too powerful to control even for me.