Voices we listen | Hyunlix

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Chapter 42

Hot in black

POV Felix

-Are u going to talk to me, or I am leaving for club. Choose well.

I said and he was in bigger silent mode.

-I will talk.

He said almost whispering to me.

-Sorry Han, i have to deal with many papers, next time.

-But there is u girl.

-I don't care. Let Binnie have her.

I ended the call as he seemed to be satisfied with my answer but I felt jealous vibe coming from him.

I asked the guards to accompany us to the room as I wanted him to feel better as we entered and left us.

He sat at the window as I moved to his bed sitting down.

-Tell me now, how it happened?

I looked as he was into the sky again.

He started to speak looking somewhere.

-I was five at the moment as my doggy was still la young pup, he like to eat shoes a lot as his teeth were still growing and he often would bite on it. I left him inside and after I returned he wasn't there just torn apart shoes of my dad.

He hugged himself.

-He was in the backyard when I ran out to find the body of the dog in the grave he was making, I wan't supposed to see it, I guess but I did and I started crying, he started pushing me from the body of the dog as I fell and bumped into the table edge. I had a cut and he took me in knowing that my mother will blame him and he started to tell what should I say, I listened 4 hours of him telling the same phrase and when my mother came she beat me up and never believe me again, no-one listened or defended me and I wasn't getting much from that time, they wanted to get rid of me locking me in the room to just exist. No-one ever believed me, ever supported me.

He ended and went silent again as if it was the last thing he would ever tell me, the shame entered him, he hugged himself harder.

I stood up coming to him as I whispered to him.

-I believe u, but on trust we have to work as much u tried to kill me and steal my keys.

-How can u believe me, I almost killed u? Felix? Are u insane?

He was asking me the question the answer I couldn't give him.

-I just believe u and that's enough for me. Btw u sister is missing u a lot, I talked to her and she was sad she did nothing when she could.

He didn't answer em and it was for better.

His father triggered the bipolar disorder making him to isolate from the world and create the whole new personality for himself that would make him feel safe and strong. It was for sure.

I wrote the thing down as I placed the paper on the table.

-What are u thinking about?

I asked as he was the same there sitting and looking.

-I am thinking why are u like this, I can't get it?

He said finally looking at me.

-Sometimes u don't need to answer all questions, Hyunjin. Something should be left like it is.