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Hurt-less

Chapter 32

Hurt-less

The euphoria came inside drugging me through and through, the reality was not hurting me anymore. I was locked inside the white room with one small window to construct the reality for myself. The broken pieces of the imagination were pretending to be realistic as I lost the timing, I didn't know the time, the day, the week and season anymore.

It looked all the same for me. The same people, rooms and air. I was lying calmly at the bed they left for me. The toilet was in the corner of the room making it even more ridiculous and shameful, getting on my nerve. I didn't get to get out as others did, they locked me inside. The monster wasn't capable of getting out.

I was broken and angry for placing myself in this situation even more. It felt not real anymore. I didn't want to meet the head of the department as it sounded as another torture to come in. I wanted only to sketch something, but they won't give me as I kept silence. The same old promise I remembered.

POV Felix

I get myself the work I wanted and it took me at once in. I decided to isolate myself from the patient for another week to become a more clear and objective. The whole week of organisations and mostly my paper work ate me, the assistant was doing the rest I hated the most.

He helped me a lot and I was really thankful for the director to free me from the part of the position I had.

The week went well as I recovered. I had occasional headaches and I took pills to succumb the pain and get rid of the symptoms.

The planned party was organised by the other boys as they knew how busy I was.

Han did all the job with Binnie and I just came to celebrate.

The local pub was full but we had the whole VIP zone for us.

I was having already shoulder length of the hair and it looked great on me. The street style outfit picked by Minho made me the most stylish of the group.

-I am so happy for u!

Chan shouted as he hugged me tightly, as we joined the group drinks.

I talked with everyone pretty much, even Minnie started accepting me. I took the cigarette going to the smoking box locked out of the main area. Chan joined me.

-How is it? Have u talked to him?

-No, tomorrow will but he won't talk I am sure.

-Try is a try.

He smiled and I inhaled spreading the smoke around.

-Can I ask something?

-Sure.

I pushed him on the shoulder, and he just bumped to the side of the room.

-But please be honest or don't answer.

-Okay, go on.

I was intrigued.

-Why did u sleep with him?

I was stunned for a moment inhaling the pure poison smiling, I had nothing to hide, at least from Chan.

-It felt right at the moment.

-Are u attracted to him?

He asked looking at my face.

-I think yes, he is hot, smart except that he is a complete dickhead.

Chan laughed and I giggled as a response.

-Hot, for sure, but what is the thing that got in him?

-A material one here, he is interesting, his way of thinking and the intimidation, of course. He is a complicated person with a bad childhood, I am sure but I didn't get to core unfortunately.