To Love Your Best friend [B×B]

Ch-5 Hazel eyes & brown hairs

[Jai's POV]

Someone is sad and someone is uncomfortable.Karthik was one who was the later,as if he he looked conflicted with himself,maybe because of the reasons he likes her,he did told me,he likes her because she is very beautiful,

the most beautiful girl I have ever met,those hazel eyes,those brown curly hair,she is just so beautiful.

None of them described here personality,only outer beauty,does he truly likes her? Maybe no,maybe I just don't want to accept the truth and keep on feeding my delusion,but even if he doesn't like her (which is obviously untrue) he will never like me. This just undeniable fact.

Karthik blushes during random moments of the day, he is deep in thought and absent minded often,during our free time we go through that hall and it has been a week and few days since this behaviour,he always looks at the spot next to my sister,like trying to find someone,like trying to find her....

My sister,Aisha Meena,is a 5'5 angry woman who is quite the opposite of me,I'm calm and chill while she is short tempered and protective,especially of me,even though she is younger than me.

I smile at the thought of my lovely sister. But it fades away as I remember him and her...

Aishadid told me that she has made a new bestfriend but I didn't knew who...but now I know.

Karthik comes to college early daily now,with hopes in his eyes to find the brown haired girl,and he does finds her,I have never seen him smile that hard,and it hurts.

But when he doesn't,he just gets disappointed and more distracted. We don't talk much these days,close to no and I wish we can go back to the old simple days when we would laugh at lame jokes but would laugh together instead of being sad while falling apart.

Kartik these days is quiet,total opposite to the normal happy and energetic Karthik,he used to be the glowing ball of energy but now....Now he is quiet and absent minded,I wonder if he even thinks of me,knowing the last time we talked was a day before yesterday,he is busy these days,no matter how much I try to talk. I always get the same response but he is not busy when it is time to talk to the economic major boys about her.

He doesn't have time? Or he doesn't care enough to talk to me?

He always looks like he is debating to himself about something important,as far as I know it is not me because I'm not important and it is her,because she is most important....to him.

Whenever we walk to his bike,he gets nervous,little excited and nervous as he looks at someone,so it is what first crush feels like,all butterflies and glee? I didn't knew,I only feel envy and the fear of losing a friendship.

I can only cry,I cannot do anything about it,because I cannot control the way I feel,I truly wish I could.

When he told me about the crush,I could only congratulate but I wish he hadn't told me,but I'm glad he did,atleast I got a reality check before I feel for him deeper,it is just a small crush as I has just started and I know it will go away.

Dear diary,all of these thoughts have occupied my mind,it has been 2 days since I last saw Karthik,no texts or calls, It has been 2 days since I went to college,I am too scared to get hurt,but I cannot hide forever,right?

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Jai was just tired to hurting himself everyday with hope,so now he stopped trusting anything related to hope.

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