The Stepbrother's Girl

Chapter 25:: Confessions of Regret

::Aria's POV::

PS: The story from here on will be a mix of both Aria and Blake.

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I wake up in the hospital room chair, my back aching my lips and mouth dry, and a headache from hell all from crying my eyes out. Why would Blake have done this? Is all I can seem to keep asking myself.

Did he find out? It was a mistake and I shouldn't have done it... I regret my decisions as I sit there moping around in my own sorrow. I shouldn't have the nerve to feel bad for myself when he's in this condition.

I return my attention to him as I look at his expressionless face. I love Blake, and I always will. He deserves better than me... but I can't leave his side right now. My face lowers as I look down and close my eyes and begin to cry. Tears fall down my face, a small whimper also escaping my lips as I begin to question if he would have been happier without ever knowing me.

Icy tips of fingers glide across the top of my hand that's flat on the side of his hospital bed. My eyes dart up to his face. His lips upturn into a smile as a wave of relief falls over me. His eyes slowly begin to open as he notices me sitting next to him. Then his smile turns into an instant expression of remorse which makes my heart feel like it's been grabbed and squeezed.

I sit there silently as he raises his hand to his eyes as he begins to cry softly.
"Aria..." He starts as I cut him off.
"No Blake! I'm so sorry that you felt like you didn't deserve to be here, I'm a horrible person for leaving you and not being there for you... it's not your fault it's mine." I begin as he grabs my hand and squeezes it.
"Aria... I have to tell you something... I honestly shouldn't have reacted the way I did... but I can't stand that I've betrayed you." He begins to cry harder making my heart pound.

What could he have done? My heart begins to hurt as my body begins to weaken.
"I slept with someone else while I was away." He says through gritted teeth not looking me in the eyes. He just cups his face in his hands. My heart begins to feel like it's caught fire by this point. My head begins to pound like my heart almost on the same tempo.
"Do you love her?" I ask him as a tear threatens to fall from my eye. He doesn't respond for a moment as my heart begins to break.

His vacant response let me know all I needed to know. This is my karma for being childish about things and leaving the way I did. I should have never left and I should have worked things out between us. My mind goes crazy as he abruptly stops my thought process by speaking.
"No." He says still not looking me in my eyes.

I begin to feel angry as I sense that he's lying.
"Then how come you can't look me in me in my eyes, and took you a minute to reply to me." I say trying not to cry more than I already am. He cuffs his face in his hands once more as he begins to cry again. This time I knew it was real. I've actually lost Blake and it's all my fault.

He grabs my hands in his as my eyes finally lock into his eyes. His eyes puffy, and bloodshot his face flushed and his body paler than I've ever seen it. How dare I let him feel so horrible for cheating when I've also cheated. Guilt flushes over me as I begin to feel weak again.
"Aria... all I know is that I love you. I don't know if I love her. I'll never see her again, she lives miles away and really I'm not even sure if she even likes me at all. I'm really sorry, if I could take it back I would." He begins as I cut him off by shaking my head and interrupting him.

"I slept with Levi." I say as his eyes turn ice cold, I could almost see his soft sad expression turn into a sweltering fire pit of anger. He slings the bedside table that held some medical supplies across the room as his heart monitor begins to go crazy. I shoot up from the chair as I panic about what he's going to do. He didn't even react like this when he was confessing what he did.

"You what?" He yells as he's now standing face to face with me towering over me. Due to the commotion some nurses walk into the room as he begins to become angrier.
"Out of anyone you could have slept with, you chose my brother?" He yells at me as the two wide eyed nurses try to calm him down and usher him back to the hospital bed.
He tries to struggle from them trying to make him lay back down as they begin to become anxious and phone on the radio for sedatives.

My heart stings as I try to calm him down I don't want to see him like this.
"Blake I'm so sorry... I really was wrong about what I did. I truly thought that Levi was the one for the longest time before I met you, you showed me what real love felt like and for that I thank you. Please don't make things worse by causing the nurses trouble they're just trying to help you Blake please." I plead with him as he takes a deep breath in.

He lays on the bed as the nurses call off the medicine and let him calm down as one goes to get him water the other one picks up the table he slung over. I'm sure the nurses once hearing me they kind of understood what was happening and didn't stress as much anymore. After picking up the table the other nurse leaves the room. I can tell the nurses were judging us.

The silence of the room overtook the peace that felt more like agony at this point. I regret what I did and I'm sure he does too, how are we suppose to move past this. Or if we even should.