just a bunch of panic/anxiety attacks

Im so sorry.

characters: kiri, bakugou
tw: ptsd, panic attack, mentions of abuse
desc: spikes haired guy doesn't like loud things

-aged up-

Kiris pov

I quickly walked into the house, met by blackness and our dog, Rocky. I pet him before taking my shoes off, setting my things down on the couch, and walking to my boyfriend's room to say hi. Unfortunately, that's not what happened.

"Baby? I'm h- Are you crying?"

I heard sniffing coming from the bathroom before it slowly opened and the light showed his puffy eyes and tears flowing. He had a look of sadness for a couple seconds before he quickly wiped his tears and got mad.

"Where were you! I was worried! You didn't answer my calls- or my messages! Something could have happened babe! You were supposed to be home an hour ago! You could have been dead!"

I stopped dead in my tracks and stared at him, whose face was looking at the clock, reading 02:54am. He stepped out of my way and walked over to the door.

"I'm sleeping on the couch."

My hands started getting clammy and i turned around to look at him.

"Babe, I know i was home later than i was supposed to- please-"
"No! This is the 3rd time this week. I'm sick of this shit Kiri!"

His voice was slowly getting louder and he was coming off more aggressive.

"Kat-"
"No! Now's my time to be angry. I've let you be late multiple times. I've been understanding and everything! So why can you just come home on time! What am i doing wrong? Is there someone else?"

My mouth hung open, unable to thing of what to say next.

"Eijirou!"

He started to cry again, this time looking away and putting his hand up to his face. I really hurt him. I walked up to him and put my arms around him, in attempt to calm him down. He relaxed slowly in my arms but then he pushed me away and i fell onto the floor, my back hitting the hard tile.
The pain in my back brought the memories of my abusive dad back. The hitting. The cursing. Everything. My eyes widened as the only thing i could see was my non existent father in front of me, even if he wasnt there.

"Oh my- Ei i'm so sorry.." I watched his hand reach for me, and on instinct i crawled backwards into the corner, trying as hard as possible to get away.

Katsuki's pov.

God i'm a shit boyfriend. Why am i even mad? It's just an hour. He really deserves someone better.

I watched him crawl back to the corner and start whispering things to himself. Then it clicked. I triggered his ptsd. I internally cursed myself and slowly knelt down to his level, watching his eyes go frantic as well as his breathing.

"Hey, it's me. It's okay Ei, he's not here. I promise. Can you look up at me?"

He looked up at me slowly and then his eyes widened more, as tears started pouring out his eyes.

"O-oh Kat- i-im so sorry."
"Don't apologize Ei. I should be apologizing. I was being a dick. Now listen, you're gonna be okay, alright? Just breathe." He nodded his head.
"Do you feel well enough to be moved to the bed or do you want to keep sitting here?"
"H-here."
"Alright that's okay. Do you want water?" He nodded quickly and i sat up, reaching for the bottle of water on the nightstand.
"Here, drink it. Just breathe, i'll be with you the whole time."

I sat there next to him as he drank his water and his heart rate slowed down. He took a heavy sigh and looked over at me, reaching out.

"You want me to hold you?"
"Yeah."

I slowly picked him up and onto my lap, his legs around my waist and his chest on mine with head on the right side of my neck.

"Damn Eijirou i'm so sorry. That was completely unnecessary I should have thought befo-"

He sat up in my lap to look at me.

"Baby. Everyone makes mistakes. I know you're sorry and that you weren't trying to trigger me."
"But i still did."
"Yes, but you're only human. I don't have anything against you babe."
"Fine."

I kissed him on his cheek as he laid his head back down on the side of my neck.

"I love you Kat."
"Love you too Ei."