just a bunch of panic/anxiety attacks

Struggling PT2

characters: bakugou, aizawa, izuku
tw?: talk of ed, sh, suicidal thoughts and depression
desc: bakugou opens up

Bakugou's POV:

I never planned i would actually tell someone about my ED. I thought maybe if i masked it enough, nobody would notice. Of course for me, that's not the case.

"Problem child you have to eat. Atleast one quarter."

I told him everything. How i would miss class cause i passed out and how i went weeks without eating. Now i'm not allowed to be alone and i can only train twice a week. Fucking great.

"Bakugou. You can't keep starving yourself."
"You can't make me eat."

He was obviously fed up, but i was running off of 2 hours of sleep and a completely empty stomach. What's there to care about?

"Why do you even care? I'm just another student."
"Bakugou you are not 'just another student'. You're 17 living in a society where mental health isnt a priority. I care because i see you as my own. I understand, Bakugou. Now take a bite."

I sighed and picked up the fork. I ate atleast 4 bites before i had to stop.

"It's okay. You did good. Here, drink some water."
"Thank you."

I stood up from the table, him standing up after me.

"You know you're not allowed to leave by yourself."
"I'm tired. Just let me sleep."

He sighed and motioned towards my room, walking behind me.

Once we made it he took sight of my room. The clothes everywhere and gum wrappers. Lots of gum wrappers.

"Lay down, i'll deal with this. You need rest."

He motioned towards my bed and i laid down, staring at the ceiling.

"Kid."

He just called me out of nowhere. I looked over at him, seeing that he was sitting next to me in my bed.

"We need to talk. You told me about your eating disorder, but i know there's more than that. I need to know, Problem child."

I gulped and looked at my hands.

"Bakugou."
"Fine."

"What do you want to know?"
"What happened to make you feel this way. Don't give me that 'school' bullshit we already went through that. There more to it and i need to know."

I paused and looked down. He wanted my full story? That was different.

"You want everything...?"
"Yes Bakugou."

I sighed and looked at the tiny stuffed animal on my bed. The one he got me when i had a panic attack. I grabbed it and held it tight.

"My mom's abusive. Always has been. It's gotten worse, she's found new methods. New 'fun' ways to cause me harm. First it was the hits. Eventually stopped working so she pushed me into things. That stopped fast and now she throws bottles at me and pushes me in the pool. I can't swim, the pool is 8ft deep."

He didn't respond right away, but he was definitely mortified.

"Holy shit..."

"The pain was so constant that i wanted to cause the harm myself. So... razor blades were my only option."

He looked up and me and then glanced down at my wrist, covered in gauze.

"Bakugou..."

"Around this time last year i had enough of it, so i tried to... you know.."

He stayed silent, not even knowing what to say. Tears started to go down my face, proof that this was hard to talk about.

"Do you still try to..?"

I nodded, feeling a sharp breath come from him.

"Now i'm just depressed. I can't eat, sleep, any of that. I just sit here, looking at the ceiling. I do a good job of masking it at school, but the second i'm in my dorm.."
"It comes back."

"Listen kid. I'm here. If you need to cry, scream, talk, or just want a hug, i'm here. You have my number."
"I know."

The tears turned into sobs and he pulled me into a hug, turning in the bed so he was sitting beside me.

Aizawa's POV.

The tears and sobs were enough to make me start crying. Of course i didn't, but i felt for him. He was hurting, but nobody had noticed.

"I-i don't think i can keep doing this." He said, pulling the blanket over himself.
"I hope that you're not implying what i think you're implying."

He didn't respond for a few seconds before a tiny nod was felt on my arm. I inhaled sharply and tucked him in with the blanket. He was laying beside me down.

"Go to sleep Bakugou. You don't have to go to class tomorrow."

He quickly went to sleep, almost instantly. It was obvious he was tired.

A few minutes later, Problem child 2 came in the room quietly.

"Midoriya? Why are you up, it's 00:30am."

He walked in and looked over at Bakugou, who was sleeping beside me.

"Just want to make sure my best friend is okay. Heard him crying."
"He's okay, go to sleep. You have class in a few hours."
"Alright. Night Mr. Aizawa."
"Goodnight Midoryia."

He walked out and soon after i fell asleep, Bakugou securely clung onto me.

858 Words.

(i made this in under an hour with nails on i was STRUGGLING.)