just a bunch of panic/anxiety attacks

Please dont go.

characters: kiri, bakugou, aizawa, mic
tw: overdose, panic attack, mention of knives but no sh
desc: rock boy doesn't wanna live anymore

Bakugou's pov.

It was 22:30 (10:30pm) and i was waiting for Kiri to come back from the bathroom. I had just gotten back from a party and was gonna surprise him with gifts. Unfortunately, that's not how the night went.

"Mmmmgh"
"Kiri? You good in there?"
"Oh shit! Heyy baby"
"Kiri what are you doing in there?"
"I'm not doing anything. Uh, can you um leave the room for a second?"
"I'm not leaving. Babe tell me what's going on."
"Nothing- just please?"
"I'm coming in."
"Wait! Stop!"

I tried to unlock the door but he locked it right before I could open it.

"Eijirou open this door or I will break it down."
"Mmnghhb.."
"Alright, stand back."
"Wait-"

I blasted the door open and my I thought I was hallucinating. 1 empty bottle of anti-depressants and bloody knives were on the counter. He didn't have cuts on him though.

"Eijirou what the fuck! Oh shit uhhh what do I do!"
"H-help..."

I watched him start throwing up on the floor and I immediately ran, got my phone, and dialed Aizawa.

"Hel-"
"I need you in Kirishimas room. H-he- He's overdosing! On an-anti depressants or some type of medication i don't fucking know but he's throwing up on the fucking floor i don't know how to fucking help please Aizawa I don't think he has much time le- Oh shit oh fuck KIRI!"
"I'm on my way. Stay on the phone and breathe. I'm texting Mic right now to come over to you."
"Kiri.. please don't do this."
"Is he breathing?"
"Uhh.. Yes but barely! Is he gonna die. Shit oh fuck KIRI WAKE THE FUCK UP. Kiri please don't go.."

I leaned him over the toilet so he could get off the floor and held his hair back in a ponytail, still freaking out.

"Is that him throwing up?"
"Yes!"
"Bakugou?! Baku- Oh my."
"Please help you gotta do something!"

The call ended and Aizawa ran through the door with paramedics and Recovery Girl behind him. They all ran into the bathroom and pushed me aside onto the bed, away from the scene.
I couldn't think right. My mind was everywhere. I couldn't breathe or see due to my tears.

"Hey. Look at me."
"W-what."
"I know you're scared, and you have every right to be; but right now you need to breathe. You're panicking and soon it's going to turn into a full blown panic attack if you don't calm down soon."
"I-i. D-do you see h-him? I c-could have avoided th-this!"
"Bakugou, don't blame yourself. The paramedics are here to help him."
"I-i"

I started to calm down, but the paramedics ran out with him in a stretcher and things inside of him. The panicking quickly came back and I my breathing was completely gone. I was just frozen.

"Hey. Look at me Bakugou don't look at them."

He went infront of me kneeling down to put my attention on him instead of the paramedics.

"Breathe. I know it's scary but you just need to breathe."
"B-but i c-can't!"
"I know I know. Just listen. Breathe in, and then breathe out. Slowly."

I tried to breathe with him but the more I tried the harder it got.

"Hey. You like music?"
"Y-yeah."
"What music type of music do you listen to? Any specifics?"
"A-anything re-really."

I watched him do something on his phone for a few seconds then grab my headphones off my desk, connecting them and then putting them over my head.
-insert song here- played.

"Just listen to the music. Don't think about anything else okay? I'll be right here till you calm down."

It took a little bit, but after a few minutes, my breathing got slower and but my panic go away.
I was still worried about Kiri, but I felt a bit better.

"Feel better?"
"Yeah. Thanks I guess."
"Don't worry kid." He looked down at his phone and smiled slightly.
"Kirishima will be alright. He's gonna get some treatment and therapy but he's gonna be okay."
"Thanks."
"No problem. Come on, you need water. You're probably dehydrated from the amount of crying you did."
"Alright."