Torn. (Pewdiepie and Cry FanFiction)

Chapter 31.

Lily's POV

The kiss felt like a dream; as if it wasn't actually real and as if it wouldn't have any real consequences once I've woken up from it. It was just a kiss. Just one tiny kiss. That's what my mind wanted to believe, but everything else inside of me knew otherwise. This wasn't just a tiny kiss. This was almost a full on make out judging by the amount of passion Pewds and I were both putting into it, and I knew because of this there would be MAJOR consequences.

I was quick to act, and I shook myself awake and back to reality. My eyes popped open as I suddenly realized my actions and I pulled away, giving a Pewdie a hard slap to the face. "Y-You... You idiot!" I shouted. My chest heaved as I struggled to catch my breath, and my face was hot and red with embarrassment. "Why...why did you kiss me?!" I asked. I couldn't breathe, and I realized I was still dangerously close to him when I heard him mumble an 'ow' against my lips.

I scrambled away from him to the other end of the couch, but it still wasn't enough space. I wanted to put more space by standing, but my legs refused to work, so I simply sat there, my knees pressed against my chest tightly.

We stayed completely silent for a minute or so, as I sat and tried to calm my racing mind and as Pewds caressed his injured cheek. But, I soon realized he didn't answer my question, and I wanted answers. I wanted them NOW.

"Pewdie. Answer my question. Now." I demanded, and his eyes widened at my hostile tone, but it worked, since he nodded in response. "Fine, fine..." He sighed and I felt his eyes burn a hole into the side of my head. "I like...no, fuck it. Lily, I..." His voice trailed off. "I love you..."

This time, my own eyes widened and my mouth fell open. Pewds was...in love with me...? I glanced over at him, terrified and confused beyond belief. He nodded silently; as if he was reading my thoughts.

"From the moment I heard your voice and saw your face, something inside of me came alive. I became crazy- obsessed even- with you, and I fell so deep and hard and fast for you..." He said. He bit his lip and stretched his hand out to cup my cheek, and the action undeniably gave me butterflies. "I'm in love with you, Lily. And, I'm never going to stop loving you. No matter if you have a boyfriend or not..." He whispered, and by the time he finished his sentences, I was completely frozen in shock.

My lips parted to reply, but the words were lodged in my throat. "B-But... Marzia..." I choked out in a soft whisper and Pewds scoffed. "Pffftt. I don't love her. I used to, but not anymore. She was possessive, cold, distant, rude, and she played childish games with me."

I bit my lip hard and looked down at my shaking hands. "So...you know what she did?" I asked and Pewdie frowned at my question. "No. What did she do...?"

The emotions I felt earlier suddenly rushed back to me, and I was overwhelmed by sadness. "She..." I gave a shaky sigh. "She's the one Cry cheated on me with..." I sniffed and fell back into Pewdie's comforting embrace. I gripped his shirt tightly and squeezed my eyes shut, burying myself in his body heat.

I knew this was wrong. But, he seemed to be my only option at the moment. He was my only light at the end of the dark tunnel I was shoved into by the boyfriend-stealer named Marzia. He seemed to be the only one who gave a damn about MY feelings since he embraced me tightly and stroked my hair without hesitation.

"I am going to kill them..." He muttered angrily, and I shook my head sharply. "It...It doesn't matter." I said. "I already broke up with Cry, and..." My voice trailed off, and my eyes widened with realization.

I didn't know what to do now. Everything happened so quickly, I didn't have the time to sit down with myself and realize what the next step in my life was.