Torn. (Pewdiepie and Cry FanFiction)

Chapter 6

*TWO HOURS EARLIER*

Cry's POV

I bit my lip as I tapped my fingers against the controller.

Tap, tap, tap.

My body forced my mind to concentrate on the game playing in front of me, but I couldn't.

Tap, tap, tap.

I sighed in defeat as I started turning off my console and controller. Why is my mind being so stubborn these past weeks?

'Because of Lily,' it reminded me. I groaned as I sat back down. It's been two weeks since I've seen her and I've missed her deeply. It's ridiculous how much a person can think about someone else. But I just can't stop thinking about her. It become a routine for me to sit and take twenty minutes to stop and think about her.

'Why don't you just call the god damn pizza place Cry?' My mind asked me. I have asked myself the same question many times,but the truth was...

I was afraid.

I've never been the cool guy in school, so that's why I've worn this mask. My mask helped mask my emotions,my facial expressions, and other things....But that didn't matter right now. This mask is the only reason why I became sort-of-popular in school. But, with Lily. I feel as if I don't need to mask my feelings. It felt like she wouldn't judge me for.....me. She didn't even try to take my mask off for God's sake! That should be enough proof for me. I sighed as I stood.

I know what I've got to do.

My head turned and my gaze landed on my phone. Is it normal to be nervous right now? My breathing slowly sped up as I slowly grasped my phone and dialed.

Three more numbers......

Is it normal for my palms to be this sweaty? Deep breathes Cry.

Two more numbers......

God damn, stop being a wuss Cry!

One more number-

Beep!

Oh thank god, I really didn't want to call. My eyes looked around for the source of the sound when they landed on my laptop. I had a Skype request from my bro. 'Pewdie' It flashed.

I scurried to click 'accept'. The minute I did the Swedes face popped up on my laptop screen. "Sup?" I asked trying my best to hide my shaking body/hands and be casual.

"Dude, are you okay?"

"Uh, yeah. Well, why wouldn't I be?" I said laughing nervously. He raised his eyebrows questionly. "I swear I'm fine." Pewdie sent me a look I knew all too well.

It was the 'Stop being stupid and tell me what the hell is wrong with you right now.' It had a long name, but it always worked. It was no use in going against that face. Trust me, I learned that the hard way. My head hung as I slowly pieced my thoughts into understandable sentences. I took a deep breathe and I let everything out. Everything from my thoughts and emotions. All during my rambling I saw Pewds eyes widen as big as the moon. Poor Pewdie, he did not think that I would let all this out on him.

Once I finished I took a deep breathe and exhaled. There, I finally said it. It felt like a stack of bricks that have been riding around with me for the past two weeks lifted off my chest. It felt like I can breathe again.

I peeped up at Pewdie and laughed silently at the sight. His mouth gaped open, casually closing then opening. He seemed into deep thought, probably trying to comprehend what I just said. "Uh... well damn." He laughed after two minutes as he scratched the back of his neck. I smiled shyly as a light pink blush creeped onto my face.