Torn. (Pewdiepie and Cry FanFiction)

Chapter 22

(It's going down, I'm yelling Timber! -Em ._.)

Pewdiepie's POV

"You did what?!" I yelled and stood from the chair I sat in. Marzia had a displeased face from my yelling and she stood across from me, arms crossed and her chest rising with her steady breathing. The silent agitation from her didn't give me any hint to lower my voice or to sit back down and talk about what happened, I merely stared at her with anger.

The silence was thick and our glaring stares continued for a few minutes until I boiled over with frustration.

"Marzia, you have no right going through my stuff! And anyway, what was the reason?! It's not like I'm cheating on you!" Lie, an utter lie. Liking, no, loving someone else that wasn't your partner is cheating, right? Well, it sure as hell felt like it.

"No right? No right?!" She burst through her silent bubble. "Felix, I'm not sure if you forgot, but I am your girlfriend! I have all the right to look since you've been very distant lately and I was worried about you! But what do I find?! You have been talking to some girl over Skype doing God knows what while you completely ignored me!"

"Her name is Lily and we are just friends, okay? Geez, why didn't you just wait to talk to me before assuming things about her?" I said, crossing my arms. I don't know why I was going against my girlfriend, but I felt the need to protect Lily. It was my fault for letting my feelings go wild and I didn't want her to be blamed for something she's obviously not doing.

Marzia's eyes seemed to widen in rage and her hands went down to her sides, balled and an obvious sign she was furious. "Talk to you?! I've been trying to talk to you all this time!"

I scoffed and glared down at her now stony eyes. "Just a notice, Marzia, I wasn't the only one acting like an absolute child during the weeks. I was trying to talk to you too, but I was given the cold shoulder, so we are both just as bad!" I pointed out.

"At least I'm not the one cheating with some girl from Florida!'' She shouted with a red face. "We are in a relationship, Felix, and I am not wasting two years of my life to just break up, alright?! So just get that through that thick-skull of yours for me!"

I heaved a breathe of air to resist the urge of breaking something and turned around and began walking to my recording studio, but before I left the room I turned back to face Marzia. "Oh, I'm not cheating on you, by the way. She has a boyfriend that is my best friend and I would never do that to him." Another lie slipped from my mouth in calm anger and I walked all the way to my sanctuary where I sat in my chair and ran my slightly rough hands over my face.

After a few minutes of breathing and cooling down, I was fully calm and I instantly regretted everything I said.

I don't know why I flipped out on Marzia; she clearly does have a right to know everything that has been happening, but I still can't tell her. I know I'm already dangerously close to losing Marzia, but it'll burn her heart to ash if she were to know that I no longer love her.

I love my bestfriend's girlfriend that means the whole world to him.

"This is all so fucked!" I groaned, frustrated.

In a bid to rid of my emotion, I hit a small stuffed pig that was collecting dust on my desk, resulting in it being upside-down on the carpet floor. I stared at it and sighed before picking it back up and kissing it, placing it back on my desk.

I know I should go out there and apologize for all of the bullshit I've put her through and for the bullshit I might put her through in the future too. But instead I whipped out my phone and scrolled through my contacts and clicked on a specific name.