Torn. (Pewdiepie and Cry FanFiction)

Chapter 23

(Warning: Crappy and half-assed chapter ahead-Em ._.)

Pewdiepie's POV

I let out a breath, the air becoming mist and fog before fading away with the wind. The harsh gusts of the icy coldness made no sense with the clear skies and the shining sun, but the wind obviously didn't care for it still bit and nipped at my uncovered face.

I shoved my hands further into my hoodie's pockets, as if the heat would travel from my hands to my face if I did so. I shook my head at my own stupidity and walked over to an empty bench under a moderate sized tree, taking a seat after shaving the bit of frost covering it.

I shifted around to find a comfortable position on the hard bench. After finding none, I sighed and sat normally; with my hands in my lap and slouching slightly. Children's playful and happy giggles finally reached my ears because the tree blocked the wind that blew and whispered in my ear, my thoughts being the only thing I can hear.

I watched them play and chase each other around the aged and rusted playground, their smiles saying they could care less whether or not the playground will collapse with their weight and how they were happy with what they had.

Another gust of wind came and tousled my hair, probably making it look like a bird's nest. I groaned in annoyance at both my hair and the happiness that surrounded me. I had to admit, I was bitter at the moment.

I was jealous of everyone's happiness while I was over here, mind racking over what to do, how to handle my feelings for Lily, and plan how to handle the fire of my girlfriend back home; whom is probably furious over our argument.

But no matter how many times I go over things, I just find myself thinking of Lily, Marzia being pushed to the very back of my mind. The only thing that brings me back to reality is the thought of Cry knowing of my admiration and feeling the need to hide Lily from me, so I won't take her away from him.

I can't have Cry find out, never. He would never trust me and no trust will basically destroy the bond and friendship we have. And I couldn't lose my best friend, he's the only one I have now that Marzia doesn't believe me of not cheating. Yeah, I guess Lily counts, but I can't talk to her without feeling guilty and loving more of her.

I groaned inwardly and combed my hair with my fingers, letting them stay there, so I was holding my head. I stayed like that for a few minutes and I was positively sure that it looked strange and insane- like to parents.

I didn't care, but luckily my phone buzzed with a notification, forcing me to break that session of hard thinking. I reached into my pocket and grabbed my phone. I unlocked my phone and saw I received a new E-mail from YouTube. Curious, I clicked on it and read it over, eyes widening at what it said.

There was going to be a YouTube convention in a few days in none other than Florida...the place where Cry and Lily are going to be...

I sighed and slipped my phone back into my pocket. My feelings were all over the place, the best way to describe it was like a girl's emotions while she was on 'those days', that was the best description I could give. They were on a rollercoaster ride.

I was happy of going over to meet my bros, but I knew I had to go with Marzia, which made me dread the airplane ride and sharing of hotel rooms with someone who I was going to constantly have arguments with. I was ecstatic of being with my best bro, Cry, but I was nervous and a little blushed that I might get to see Lily in person.

I couldn't control the butterflies that fluttered in my stomach at the thought of shaking those petite and soft-looking hands, hugging her slim figure, and...kissing those plump and perfect lips of hers...I silently gasped at my thoughts and shook my head slightly, trying to shake off the many desires that involved Lily.