Maybe it should have been you (kt ff)

14. Revelations and Regrets

Jimin's P.O.V.:

I let out a sigh as each knock on the door sent shivers down my spine, the muffled shuffling outside amplifying my anxiety. This morning the boys had left to check on the house they bought right after returning to Korea. And when they returned this evening they had many questions, likely stemming from conversations they had with Y/n, Jungkook, and Taehyung. Not that it really mattered since it would all inevitably come back to my mistakes.

"Jimin, come on! We're not leaving until you talk to us," Namjoon calls out, his voice piercing through the door, a blend of concern and determination. I knew I should respond, yet the weight of my thoughts kept me pinned to the bed in silence.

"Jimin-ah, please come out," Hoseok gently pleas. "I don't want to talk about it," I say my voice barely above a whisper. 

The room felt tense as my silence persisted until Namjoon's exasperated sigh cut through the air. "Listen Jimin, we are all adults now. You can't keep running away from all of your problems! You're only making things harder on yourself!"

In a surge of frustration, I fling the door open. "Fine!" I snap bursting through the doorway. "If you want to know so bad I'll fucking tell you!" I yell storming down the stairs not bothering to look behind me and see if they followed. 

As we settle down in the living room, the palpable tension wraps around me. "So are you going to tell us or not?" Namjoon asks his calm demeanor barely masking his curiosity. "You want to know the truth! The truth is that I fucked up, just like I always do!" I yell my voice quivering, gaze fixed on the the ground, fighting back tears. "I hurt her, everything is all my fault just like Taehyung and Jungkook said last time."

They look at me their perplexed expressions begging for clarification. "Isn't that what you said to Namjoon last time?" Jin interjects the others nodding in agreement. "But that still doesn't explain what happened. We know you messed up but what could you have possibly done to make the situation this bad?" Namjoon says inquiring further into the situation. 

"It wasn't just one thing, it was everything. I ignored her, and when didn't do that I was cold to her. I pushed her away, and the longer it went on, the angrier I felt," I confess, waves of shame crashing over me.

The four of them look at me, even more confused than before. "But why? I thought you loved her?" Yoongi says, voicing the question on everyone's mind. "Right before the wedding, I realized that I loved Y/n, that I never stopped," I say, my voice tinged with vulnerability. "And that was when all of my fears and insecurities from the past crept back in."

Jimin's P.O.V.: (Flashback to before Y/n and Him got married)

The evening air is tense as I step out of Seonhwa's apartment, her furious screams seeming to echo down the corridor. The setting sun painted the sky in hues of orange and purple, a stark contrast to the story encounter I had just had.

My heart is racing, not from the confrontation, but from a sense of profound relief. The further away I get from her apartment the more I feel the weight of my strained relationship with Seonhwa lift from my shoulders. If I am being honest I had long been tired of my relationship not only was Seonhwa needy and toxic, but she also had a tendency to be very overdramatic. To top all of that off she never liked Y/n constantly trying to break us apart, which had been a source of frustration for me. 

As I left the building and entered the parking garage, I spot Y/n waiting in the distance. She had insisted on coming despite my reassurances I would be okay alone. Now that we were here, I was relieved that she had tagged along. Once I am closer Y/n's eyes meet mine, brimming with concern. "Jimin, are you okay?" she asks running up to me.