carmella
the sun was shining right into my room signaling me to wake up but i snuggle more into my pillow feeling it's heart beat
wait pillows don't have heart beats who the fuck am i laying on
i looked up to see to my surprise i was laying on gio his arm protectively around me
" are you ok mi amor" his voice laced with concern gio said looking down at me with his rare soft expression
"one what are you doing in my room and two why woudnt i be ok- oh shit"
memories of last night came flooding back i had a nightmare last night all my brothers where there i don't even know what triggered it i had such a fun day yesterday i begin to panic all my brothers saw me they are gonna ask what caused there gonna know about cole my medication
"shit shit shit shit" i was queitly mumbling playing with my necklace
"carmella calm down it's ok you don't have to tell me if you dont want to but just to let you know i will find out eventually"
his words like ice making a shiver run down my back
i'm not ready to tell them
gio pulling the hair out my face making me rest down on him
" carmella just know me and all your other brothers love you mi amor and do not want you to come in any harms way even if that means even up there" he says pointing to my head
"i know i will tell you guys i promise but just not now and i am not telling you why i had a nightmare or what it was about" i said stubbornly
"here " he says handing me my phone
"really"
"yeah just dont tell jaiden he will go crazy and come on lets get food you have not eaten since lunch yesterday i ordered breakfast from your favorite place" giovante said
i shoudnt really be eating i had mcdonalds yesterday and when i eat junk food i am not allowed to eat for my next three meals and i can only drink water
i know a bad habbit but he engraved into my mind and i have not been able to break it
i nodded still to tired to form words i tried standing up but i was a little light headed threatening to fall back but gio catching me just in time
"maybe i should bring breakfast to you instead" he questioned
"no i'm fine lets go" i said storming past earning a chuckle from gio
holding onto the railing for dear life my whole body aching i reached my destination the smell of my favorite food place climbing my nose
now how could i not eat i will have to make it up over the next few days
i took my usual seat between kaiden and xander no ones eyes leaving me the whole time
especially damion who wouldn't stop staring so i flipped him off earning glare from gio
" take a picture it will last longer" my statement directed to my brothers i guess they took that as there sign to leave it because there usual conversations started up again
"soo mel you excited for school on monday your gonna start with the twins who are in their final year" javons question directed straight at me
"what is the day today"i asked "saturday " which javon replied to
my eyes widened i starts school in less than thirty six hours i'm dreading it
" if you are not ready to start back you can start a few days late carmella" giovante said his eyes finding mine for uncertainty
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Lost love
Teen FictionCarmella living in London with her abusive step dad thinking life could not get any worse after her mum died the only person she thought every truly loved her that is until she founds out she has 6 older brothers willing to take her all the way to...
