Lost love

chapter 31

" carmella get your ass down here breakfast is getting cold" a unknown source called out and frankly i don't care

i am so tired and its Saturday so i dont make a move but obviously my belly doesnt agree because it starts rumbling so i drag myself out of my so so so comfy bed and do my business in the bathroom

to be honest i am a bit embarrassed about yesterday but alliyah calmed my thoughts as always

" morning sleeping beauty" jav called when i got to the table all my brothers were already eating

" morning" i yawned

"why are you so tired lately you slept through dinner and woke up late" jav carried on

shrugging "i am a teenager what do you expect" I said yawning once again

"clearly" damion mumbled drinking his black coffee

wierdoo

i didn't have time to argue as a big plate of waffles was placed in front of me and me being me dived straight in

conversing with the twins as well we were still in our pajamas obviously damion and gio were in suits i think xander was going to work and javon was going out with his friends i

we were all bantering until gio brang up the dreaded subject

"mi amor what do you want to do for your birthday" gio asked finishing up some paper work he brought down and also making everyone else's conversations die down

" umm i dont really celebrate my birthday" i said shifting in my seat while jai draped his arm over the back of my seat

truth be told i havent celebrated my birthday since my mum died it just hasn't felt right my mum always my birthday so special it was us against the world but knowing this aliyah and i have this tradition where we split a cupcake by the beach and just stay there the whole night

but with us living in london nowhere near the beach we would get a hotel for night my birthday was always the one day where my mum made sure i had no worries and by association lia she was practically my mums other daughter

don't tell aliyah but her mums a bitch so she saw my mum as her mum but i never complained i was happy to have a sister amd mum loved aliyah like her own so when she died we decided instead of wallowing in pity on my birthday it would still be a day where we would have no worries and not neccassarily my birthday just a stress free day with a cupcake on the side

but this year no mum and no aliyah don't get me wrong i love my brothers but i just don't think i can do it

" what do you mean you dont celebrate your birthday" this time kaiden asked

i leaned back in my seat playing with my necklace " i never really celebrated my birthday when mum passed" i mumbled

but looking at my brothers they all had looks of pity on there face

i hate pity

i don't really know my brothers viewpoints on my mum she and i supposedly left when the twins and jav were really young so they don't remember her that much but gio damion and xander i have no idea do they hate her love her feel sad i don't know and i cant bring myself to ask

" so what do you on then nothing" jai asked wrapping his arm around my waist pulling me into him sensing I need comfort

" well me and aliyah always went to the beach the whole day and split a cupcake to me it was just a day out with a cupcake aliyah know how i dont like my birthday but doesnt want me falling into a dark space around that time but she always manages to sneak in a quick birthday candle for me"