Lost love

chapter 21

i felt like shit i looked like shit i was shit

the first thing i did this lovely morning was run to my toilet to be sick i felt disgusting i barely made it to breakfast i had one slice of toast that's it ignored my brothers stares the whole breakfast 

the expressions of confusion worry and concern written all over each and every one of them jaiden even pulled me to the side after breakfast to find out what was wrong but i said i just had a cold a lie

i feel like something happend last night but i coudnt remember for the life of me 

my head was so dizzy and blurry i just laid there looking up at my ceiling in so much pain but no tears came out i was numb and i didn't even take my antidepressants today

gio came in asking me whats wrong i gave him the same answer as i did jaiden kaiden javon and xander even though i knew no one bought it for a second they tried talking to me to tell them whats wrong but i physically cant i want to tell them so desperately how much pain i am in,i want to cry while gio holds me but he once again engraved in my mind

gio said we were all having a serious discussion after dinner today

cant wait note the sarcasm

tell anyone what i do to you and you die

and i don't even know if he is even dead and if he was some how alive i was half way across the world he could never find me

i think

i am startled by my door barging open i am in so much pain i don't even flinch i don't even look up to see who it was who has intruded in my room

" get up" a voice i sadly know two well

" what do you want damion" i croak out

"i need help" he voice coming out a mumble

three words i never thought damion would say

" with what and you have like six other siblings" i say now looking damion in the eyes surprised to see he is low key embarrassed

"i want to impress this girl but i don't know where to start so i bough a whole bunch of things and i don't know what to give her " damion now fully on quiet mode

i almost sympathize with him

almost

" alright but make this quick" i say slowly getting of my bed holding onto the banister for dear life the things are in his car at the front so that where we are heading

damion s definitely embarrassed by the abundance of stuff laid out in the car it ranges from teddys book's flower's dresses everything i have an idea

my head now beaming and my vision starts getting blurry but i still talk to damion

" the stuff you got here is good i suggest making a basket and putting all the things you got her in there i will help you make it look cute but we need to go out and buys some more stuff to decorate it with"

i can't believe what i am seeing even though i can barely see and i am slightly swaying

i see a smile across damion face as he says something but i drop to the ground engulfed in blackness

jaiden

i need to say something i have kept carmella's secret long enough of course i would of told one of my brothers straight away if carmella was in any physical pain or danger but she assured me she was not and i want to punch myself for believing her but i could tell something was wrong from dinner time she barely ate any food and looked at it with pure disgust even though it's her favorite not to be rude but she looked bad she was so pale eyebags were forming under her eyes she looked like she was about to be sick at any moment and this morning she wasn't any better no one buyed her bulshit excuse saying it was a cold

it hurt seeing my sister this way although i don't know what is wrong with her i have a feeling it was something to do with that shithead cole so i am marching to giovante's office so he can help my sister this morning he was really being persistent on carmella he could practically feel her pain but xander told him to go and calm down

i barge into gio office without knocking and start pacing up and down his office he could sense something was wrong he came to a halt in front of me holding me in place by my shoulders

"tell me what has happend now " gio's voice coming out more than and order than a statement

" it's carmella" i say

giovantte

i knew jaiden knew something about carmella from the time they came back from shopping i knew carmella told him not to say anything and jaiden is not going to break his sisster's trust so i trusted him to come to me when things were serious

but i had my slight thought's on what happend to carmella back in london and wished so hard it was not true but right now right here jaiden just confirmed those dreaded thoughts he spilled about cole abusing her and his guess on why she is not acting herself is because she is hiding a injury inflicted by cole and her nightmare last night is probably adding to the stress  knowing she is to stubborn to ever ask for help I almost broke the glass cup i was holding it would explain all the flinching when people touc her her when she hissed at certain times when she was in pain quickly hiding her pained face but i saw it i saw it all I should have confronted her about this but in the end she would denied it and i am very grateful jaiden has been looking out for her but I wish i knew sooner from what jaiden has told she sound's like she is in a lot of pain physically and mentally

" ok pequeno lets go find her"

as we begin to stand up from the chairs we were sitting in we heard damion scream my name me and jaiden begin running making sure i am in front of jaiden with my hand on my gun just incase

as we reach the driveway i see my brother holding carmella in his hands

" i don't know what happend she started swaying and then collapsed but i caught her just in time " damion spoke with no emotion in his voice his eyes glued to his baby sisster

the rest of the boys came rushing out stopping in there tracks once seeing carmella on the floor

i rush to carmella bending down already knowing why she fainted i slowly lift up her jumper keeping my eyes on her but when i hear my brother's gasps i dare too look at my sister's green and black ribs that i can already are broken i look around too see jaiden and damions anger rising by the second xander's emotionless face which is very rare for him and javon and kaiden looked crushed kaiden look's down at the floor not daring to look up

" ok damion will drive me and carmella to the hospital as it will be quicker then calling and ambulance you guys follow behind and meet us at the hospital" i say in warmer vioce then usual it must not be a nice sight to see their baby sister in this state

not waiting for answer's i pick up carmella taking her in the backseat of damions car which he is already in driving faster than normal and for damion his normal is really fast but i know he can get us there safely

we finnaly get to the hospital a cart waiting and doctors already taking her off my hands rushing her to the private wing of the hospital xander must of called ahead

no less than a minute later the rest of the boys hop out of javon's car jogging towards me and damion who stares straight ahead not taking his eyes off carmella

i want to fucking kill someone right now

intense

byeeeee