the rest of the weekend went in a blur i filled aliyah in on everything but it's not like gossiping with her in real life i miss her so much
i once again showed up javon with my cooking skills and once again everyone loving it
it was kind of a lazy Sunday we all chilled and watched films all day except for gio and demon sorry i mean damion they had work meetings all weekend
i did as much as a could to avoid the nerves about tomorrow i dont't why i am so on edge my brothers will be with me and i plan on staying quiet and just getting through the day for the next two years before i graduate but i have a feeling trouble will find me wherever i go
sigh
we are all sitting around the table eating a Sunday roast which i helped the cook make as much i love louize you need a Brit's helps to get it right
"carmella" i looked up to find the voice who called my name but already guessing who that stern voice belonged to i answered back
"yes gio" are you excited to start your new school tomorrow
hmm should i lie or tell the truth if i tell the truth they would probably be on my case all day tomorrow barely letting my breathe which is the last things i need soo
" yeah" i lie through my teeth
a lie i'm hoping my brother will believe
"great the twins will help you get settled and jaiden will be driving you guys tomorrow i would take you but i have early morning meetings"
"it's alright gio"
"and do not hesitate to call any one of us is something is wrong " his words are cool and collected but his eyes tell a different story
" i will i promise" another lie i will be sure to break even if i dont want to
damm i hate being so stubborn ( sometimes)
and with that the chatter picked back up me not notice it go down in the first place
as usual everyone loved dinner and my brothers going back to there designated rooms leaving me and jaiden cleaning up this being our last day of punishment
" so how are you really feeling about tomorrow " a concerned jaiden now stopping what he was doing to look up at me
" i'm shitting it" i say truthfully
" if it get's too much call or text me and i will bring you straight back home"
"thanks jai"
i get out my boiling shower still a bad habit of mine i tend to my bruise ribs which i am still suprised have not healed yet they are killing me i am struggling to do everyday tasks but it's fine my nerves kind of cancel out the pain
i slip on my pjamams and hop into my dream like bed hoping to drift asleep but no my brain wont let that happen
one hour goes past
then another
i am so tired but i cant go sleep thoughts race in my mind
there will be so many people
what if they dont like me
what if i can't keep up in any of my classes
what if there are no back ways to classes
the corridors will be packed
i'll be made fun off
the thoughts are endless but suprsingly they tire out my brain making me fall into a black abyss
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Lost love
Teen FictionCarmella living in London with her abusive step dad thinking life could not get any worse after her mum died the only person she thought every truly loved her that is until she founds out she has 6 older brothers willing to take her all the way to...
