Every Scar Has Its Story

Chapter 21 Petnames

What was I doing? There was absolutely no way Jax would love being my boyfriend. I shouldn't have done that, I never should have agreed to it.But it was too late, I had already agreed and maybe it was worth the try. For the first time in my life, I spoke to someone, my boyfriend on the phone until I fell asleep. It was the greatest thing to have ever happened to me.

I woke up to do my everyday routine, then my mom dropped me off at school.

"Hey."

"What are you doing here?" I smiled

" I came to see Bryce. I can't go a day without seeing this little chap of mine. I'm just so in love with it."

" You came to see Bryce?!"

" Yes, why is that a shock?"

" I don't know maybe I thought you came to see me."

"I'm sorry I didn't." I heard him bend down to pet Bryce, " Hey buddy."

I felt jealous, why was I jealous of a dog? My dog? This was weird, love was weird and it was strange in ways I never anticipated.

" Okay enough playing with you, I came to see you. How are you?"

"I'm okay."

" Are you sure?"

" Yes I am. By the way, don't you have school? You're always here and I just feel guilty..."

" Not always with you like I'd want to be so don't. And yes I do have school, somehow you're not concerned about William being here with you everyday, doesn't he have school?"

" His name is Walter and you know it. Also he works here part time for it's okay for him to be here."

" Well then I work here too."

" Where exactly is here? And what do you do?"

" I work as your boyfriend Bluberry muffin."

"Huh?"

"What?"

" Did you just call me Blueberry muffin?"

"I did."

" And why is that?"

" Wouldn't you like to find out!"

I could tell there was a smirk on his face, the one I'd never get to see

"What's going on in that little head of yours? You just turned sour on me and I really like my Blueberry muffin sweet." He put his hand on my cheek, " Are you okay?"

" Yes I am. So why blueberry muffin?"

" You know why, they're the most..."

" Thea." Walter was here

"Hi Walter. Your hoodie is in my bag, you can get it from there."

" I'll get it later it's fine. You have to go..."

" Oh yeah. I have to..."

"See ya later Blue." He left and Walter and I walked to my class

" What was that?"

"What?"

" Blue?"

" Apparently that's my petname."

" So you guys are official?"

"I think so."

" And you're already giving petnames to each other, what's his?"

" I don't have one for him."

" Why is that?"

" We'll talk later I have to go."

I was absent minded in class and I also wondered why I was here too. I never seemed to focus. The only fortunate thing was that these were the topics my Mom and I had already covered back when I was being home schooled. So why was I absent minded? Well there were a ton of things on my mind but mostly, what petname was I going to give Jax?

In all the movies and books that I've read, petnames have always been a special thing that couples gave to each other to prove their love to one another. And I couldn't think of a simple name to give him? Was I even in love with him or was I in love with the idea of being loved? Of the security and comfort he brought me? Surely if I loved him then I wouldn't have all these questions. Or maybe I do and it's me having cold feet.

It was time for lunch and I still didn't have a petname for Jax. Maybe I should just throw myself in a ditch and die.

" Well you look bothered." Walter sat next to me in the cafeteria

" I don't know Walter. Is it normal for me to not know what to call him? Like would it be..."

" You're talking about Jax?"

" Yes. What else would I be talking about?"

" Well I really don't think you should even have a petname for him."

" Why? He has one for me, won't it like be awkward..."

"Because he..." He suddenly stopped

" He what Walter?"

" Actually it's not my place."

" Walter." I was pleading with him, if he knew something and I had to know it then he had to tell me, he's my friend.

" I just saw something on his Instagram, maybe it doesn't mean anything..."

" Now I just figured how easy it would be to cheat on a blind person, they wouldn't see the signs, right?" I nervously laughed

" It could be nothing so don't..."

" What was it?"

"Thea... it's a picture of him and this girl,Toni and they're all..."

"It's okay.I get it...don't go any further."

" And why does it look like there's a funeral? Did Walter's feelings for you just die? Oh My God, RIP. Hey you." He kissed my cheek

" What are you doing here? And who's Toni?"

" Which should I answer first?"

" Whichever one you're going to be honest about."

" I'm here because I brought you lunch." I could smell the chicken burgers and fries

" Toni is...she's uhm..she's my ex girlfriend." He continued

" Which you still have on your Instagram?"

" I forgot to take that down."

" And yet you remembered to post other pictures? Walter weighed in

" Listen Thea, it's complicated and I could explain just..."

" I have time go ahead and explain."

" Alone, without..."

" Walter isn't going anywhere he has been the only one person who has been entirely honest here."

" I have to talk to you alone, listen Thea..."

" Leave Jax. Go!"

" This can't be our first fight, way too early for that."

" Way too late to explain why you have a picture of your ex on your Instagram. Actually what's the date on the post, Walter?"

" A week ago."

" A week." I tried so much to hold in the tears

" Thea, I'm trying to explain to you that..."

" Listen buddy. She has already told you to leave so beat it."

" Thea..."

" Just leave Jax and we're done."