No Fucks Given

16

The first thing Darius did was suck his teeth. "Man fuck that girl. I'll beat that hoe ass forreal." He grunted out, getting angry again.

I chuckled. I was still sad and shit reliving what happened between me and ole girl. But he always so sweet and silly, it made me laugh.

"I keep telling you, I'd never do that stupid ass shit." He continued while I was thinking.

"I mean, honestly I trust you." I paused, trying to see how I was gon phrase what I say next.

"I ain't never dealt with how that shit from the past made me feel. So I, you know, got scared you'd do the same shit." I mumbled so he could just barely hear me.

He smiled. Like legit smiled. I ain't know he could smile with his mean ass.

"It's ight. You got me now and I may let my temper get to me, but I'd never hurt you like that." He said genuinely.

I smiled back. "Yeah, I got yo lame ass."

He chuckled a bit before looking me dead in the eyes. "So... we cool now?"

I nodded, but didn't say anything back. I wanted to wrap my arms around him but I ain't know if he'd be okay with it since I started all this bullshit.

I wanted to beat my own ass. Yeah, he was mean but he ain't have nothing to do with my past and insecurities and shit. I felt bad for doing too damn much. Especially cause Darius keep showing that he wanna be together even if he don't know how to fully describe what he feel.

I ain't really know what to do next. Was we back to normal? Could we hug and kiss and joke with each other and shit? Honestly, he was probably thinking the same thing.

I figured I'd be the brave one since I'm the one who started it.

"You wanna come in the house? I heated up that pasta." I spoke up first.
"Well, that shit probably cold now."

"Yeah. I'm hungry as hell. I wanna cuddle and shit too." He grinned, happy ass hell. Who was this new person sitting next to me? Cause Darius never smiled this much.

"Ight." I got out the car first and stretched. It was like we was in that bitch forever.

He got out too and locked the car.
I headed to unlock the door with him right behind me.

When I saw the door was still cracked, I sucked my teeth. My dumb ass so in love, I coulda got robbed.

"What's wrong witchu?" He asked as I pushed the door open.

"I left the house open tryna check on yo ass."

"Aw. It don't matter. If somebody was here, I woulda knocked they ass out." He said simply.

As I looked around, nothing seemed out of place. Even my bowl of pasta was still on the counter.

His hungry ass immediately went straight to the kitchen. I locked the door back and threw myself on the couch.

I was so fucking tired. It was probably only like 8 or 9, but I was fucking drained.

It didn't take long for him to wonder in the living room, food in hand with pasta noodles hanging out his mouth.

"You tired?" He mumbled through his food.

"Yeah." I said softly. I was ready for bed.

"Ight. Let me put this up right quick, then we can get in the bed."

I blinked twice. Who was this man? Darius been acting like a whole new person and we just made up less than 5 minutes ago. I didn't hate it. I was just mad surprised that he was willing to be in a happy relationship with me.

"Cas, you sleep?" He asked when he came back.

"Nah. Not yet." I said with a yawn.

He nodded. "Then get yo ass up, I wanna hold you." He said genuinely.

I just grinned hard and got up. We both walked down the short hallway to my room.

I just hopped in the bed, getting under the covers immediately. I still had my pajamas on. Meanwhile, Darius was stripping to his boxers.

He wasn't skinny, but he ain't really have muscles either. The lean type I guess, but I already knew he kept it on him from us fucking around before. I mean, my shit wasn't small either. I was around 6, 7 inches on hard, 5 soft. I was excited to find out all the freaky shit we could do together.

"Cas, why the fuck you staring so hard?" He wasn't too mad, but it was probably a pet peeve of his.

"I wanna do shit with you is all. Nasty, freaky type shit." I blurted out, not giving a fuck.

"Man, you always horny. Take yo ass to sleep, yo." He said as he climbed in the bed.

He was towards the edge of the bed while I was in the middle. He sucked his teeth.

"Nigga, bring yo ass here."

I smiled. "Nigga, who the baby now witcho spoiled ass." I moved so I was laying my head on his shoulder how we always lay. I kept my hands at my sides tryna see if he was gon say some.

He sucked his teeth and grabbed my arm so it was over his stomach.

"Stop playing so fucking much." He grumbled.

"Ight." I chuckled but wrapped my arms around him like I've been craving.

It was silent for a minute. As tired as I was, I can never go straight to sleep.

"You working tomorrow?" I spoke up.

"Hm." He hummed. I rolled my eyes. Nigga why you sleep and I wanna talk.

"Nothing, baby. Goodnight." I kissed a kiss to his shoulder. "Love you."