Mourning

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I am mourning your touch.

The days when I had you.

Even those moments where you couldn't stand my words.

I don't know where you are, but here I spend my days afraid of losing you.

Yet, I am holding you here.

You scare me more than I could ever imagine

But how come I come back?

I hate this town; I hate the city.

I never knew what I was looking for.

Why do I waste my time here?

Here trying to explain my thoughts

To you I ruin everything

To you, you are 'misunderstood'

In my head I am not sure who I see

I mourn the person that was.

The one that was smitten my me.

Flowers on my doorsteps, flowers on every other day.

I change too much, where my appearance isn't who I am.

Where you made me hate myself.

And now? I read books on "bettering" myself.

But you're never satisfied.

And maybe I'll never be enough for YOU.

But am I? I need to know why you left me here

Mourning me.

-m.j.h.

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