What I Always Wanted (Maddie)

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"AHHHHHHH!!! I DON'T WANNA!! YOU CAN'T MAKE ME!!!"
In the middle of your walk to school, you hear shouting, which is surprising since you have your earbuds in. Curious, you turn your head to find a boy with dark blue tresses and eyes of the same color. He is pale and slim appearing to be crying. Noticing the school uniform he wears, you're sure that is where he is headed. Dragging him is a broad blonde with dark blue eyes, though not as dark as the other boy's.
"TAMAKI!!! YOU HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL!! IT'S REQUIRED BY LAW!!"
"WHY CAN'T I BE HOMESCHOOLED?!?!?! THERE'S PEOPLE THERE!! DON'T MAKE ME GO, MIRIO!!!"
"IT'S NOT THAT BAD!!! PEOPLE ARE GREAT!! AGH!! WHY ARE YOU HEAVIER THAN YOU LOOK?!?!?!?!"
Awkwardly, you approach both boys that appear to be a year older than you. Then, you ask, "Is everything okay?"
"NO!!" The slimmer boy shouts at you. "HE'S TAKING ME CAPTIVE!! IT'S KIDNAPPING!! I SHOULD CALL THE COPS!"
The blonde says, "I'm so sorry for his behavior. He doesn't really like going out, so sometimes he gets like this. Please, just go about your day. I'll get him to school somehow."
"Er- okay. I'll go now."
"Wait. I'm Mirio Togata, and this is Tamaki Amajiki, my best friend."
"Nice to meet you. I'm Y/n L/n." Amajiki is staring at you, though you figure it is probably because he wants your help.
"Well, I'm gonna drag him off now. Nice meeting you!"
Togata drags him away, though he is still kicking and screaming like a toddler. Giggling, you go back on your way to school, keeping the impression that Amajiki is quite an attractive guy, though would probably be better if he was not sobbing. Shrugging, you walk through the doors and meet your guy friend, Isamu Adachi. The moment you two see each other, you begin to grin.
"Hey, Isamu." You greet him.
"Hey. How was your morning?" You begin to fall into stride with one another.
"It was weird. On my way here, I saw these two guys who were arguing. One of them was fighting the other because he didn't wanna go to school, and the other was literally dragging him."
"Woah. That's weird."
"Isn't it? Like, I was totally weirded out. By their uniforms, it looks like they go to UA."
"UA? Wow. Lucky guys."
"Yeah. And one of them was kinda cute." You smile a bit.
"Nice."
"Sorry. I'm rambling a bit."
"It's all good."
Having always been oblivious, you do not notice the jealousy in his black eyes. The boy had always been considered handsome, and perhaps you have thought it a couple of times, too, but never once did you see him in a romantic light. His hair is the same color as his eyes, and his complexion is tan. He is tall and slender, too. Girls all over the school fawn over him and glare at you with jealous eyes, but for you, he is just your close friend whom you love in that manner.
Perhaps it is because you know there is no chance with him anyway. A boy of his caliber is far out of your reach, you being one of the uglier girls of the school. So, it never crosses your mind to get such an idea. While Tamaki Amajiki seems too good for you as well. You do not know him well anyway, so you can easily acknowledge his visuals from afar.
The very next day, you are walking with Adachi to school. As you are both walking, you find Amajiki and Togata again, this time Togata has his arm around Amajiki's shoulders and Amajiki is crying without shouting, unlike the last time you saw them. Poking Adachi, you point over to them.
"That's who I was talking about! Amajiki and Togata!"
"Wow. That blue-haired boy looks really upset."
"Yeah, according to Togata, he doesn't like to go out." At that moment, the blonde sees you and waves.
"Hey! L/n! C'mere!" Without thinking of Adachi, you rush toward the two boys, hoping to see Amajiki a bit. He's way outta my league but talking to his bestie isn't bad, right? "It's great seeing ya!"
"Yeah. I didn't think I'd run in to you two here."
"Yeah, me either." Amajiki is staring at the ground, and his tears have dried up.
"You feeling a bit better today?"
"M- mhm."
"Y/n!" Adachi runs over to you. "You just ditched me back there."
"Sorry. But you coulda followed me, yknow."
"I guess so."
"W-who's t-t-this?" Amajiki stutters out.
"Oh! This is lsamu Adachi! My boy bestie!" You put your arm around his neck in a chokehold and smile. "We go to the same school together."
"Oh."
"Can you let go now? This is uncomfortable, Y/n."
"Nope! We gotta get to school, so I'll see you two later."
You drag Adachi to school, having blue eyes glued to you. The closeness. The way your arm wraps around in the the same neck of position, another boy.
How you laugh and smile with him. The dread! The very dread of it all ifs him, and it
makes him forget that he is not home or the fact that he cannot go home. When you are out of sight, he pulls himself from Togata's grip and begins walking toward school on his own, his head still in a daze with the image of you and Adachi together resonating within it.
Pain. That is the only feeling that you can recognize. It grips at your heart, squeezing and stretching, leaving you in such a sick and pained state that makes you ready to hurl. What brought about such pain? A sight. A sight that is so heart-wrenching and cruel that you put your head down in order to shield your eyes away from it.
For the past month, you have been lucky enough to see Amajiki and Togata every day on your way to school. Since the time when it all started, you have found yourself liking the boy more than you ever wanted to. While you know you can never have him, you still feel such illogical emotions toward him, causing you nothing but distress.
What you see is him with another girl. She has periwinkle hair and blue eyes. Pale and pretty. Thin but curvy. All the things that you are not. What else did you expect? It is only natural that someone else would come to love him, and that someone is beautiful and deserving of him.
With eyes lowered to the concrete beneath your feet, tears run down your cheeks, falling onto that same ground you stand upon. The world spins round and round, making you feel dizzy. Why can not it all be a lie? You want to be caught in a lie. A lie where he does want you, and you are good enough for him. Why? Why, why, why, why, why?
Finally, you just run. Run away from the scene which breaks you down. Away from the pain. Away from the heartache. Away from it all, toward school, a place you do not want to be, either. Adachi sees you bursting through the doors with red eyes, and his own heart shatters upon seeing you so distraught.
Worriedly, he asks, "What's wrong? Did something happen?"
"He's with somebody else. I don't know what else I expected. Maybe I'm too selfish and delusional. I don't know. All know is that this hurts and I hate it and I just wanna go home." The tears come back, and he stares at you in doubt.
"I'm so sorry. I don't know what else to say."
"Nothing. Let's just get through this day."
Rushing off to class, you wipe the tears away with the heel of your hand. The entire day is spent in a daze, though you try to pretend none of it is happening. School. That is all you need. Just focus on that and it will not even exist. You can forget Amajiki if you just drown yourself in work. Yes. That is the answer. Distraction.
For two whole months now you have been a walking corpse. Only school exists and nobody else. On the way to school where you see Togata and Amajiki, you merely keep walking, and it breaks both hearts but in different ways. How could you? Are you just walking out? After all of that?
Then, the day comes when on the way home, someone grabs your shoulder. In surprise, you turn around to see a familiar blonde face. He gives you a smile, though you just nod. There is no strength within you to put on a smile anymore, so you just do not.
"L/n," he calls your name. "Are you okay these days?"
"Yeah. I'm fine."
"You've been avoiding Tamaki and l."
"I haven't been avoiding anyone. I just have school."
"But that doesn't mean you can't greet us! We miss you!"
"I'm just busy. You'll have to live." To hide your shaking hands, you put them in your pockets.
"But what about Tamaki! He's been really down lately!"
"Then why doesn't he go talk to that other girl? I'm sure she can cheer him right up."
"What other girl? Tamaki doesn't talk to girls."
"Periwinkle hair and blue eyes."
"Oh! You mean Nejire! She's my girlfriend, but also Tamaki's girl best friend. We're all cool with it." Your head snaps up.
"What? But I thought-"
"Nope! Nejire is my girl! Ooh~ were you jealous?"
Face breaking out into a blush, you jump back and shout, "N- no! I don't get jealous! And why would I be jealous?"
"You like him! You like Tamaki!"
"I do not! I do not like him! I-"
"If you do, then what's the big deal? He isn't dating anyone so you can confess and-"
"No. I'm not an idiot. Now I have to get home."
Turning around, you walk home with your head in a fog. He is not dating that girl. He is single. Still you know that you cannot have him. He is still so out of your reach.
Late at night, you stroll around by yourself with earbuds in, almost like the day you met Amajiki. Then, something large goes to hit you, paralyzing you in fear. As you stare at the giant arm coming toward you, you cannot move, much less run. Then, they pick you up, holding you high above him. A cruel smirk spreads across his face, and you just stare in horror as he brings you close to him, slowly growing smaller and smaller until he is only about twice your size and holding your waist tightly so that there is pain shooting through your entire spinal cord.
"Look at you. What a cutie. You're coming with me."
"N-no. I-I won't-"
"Was I asking?"
"Let go of her!"
Turning your head toward whoever shouted, you find yourself staring at Amajiki. He is dressed like a hero with tentacles for fingers on one hand, a clam husk on the other, the feet of a chicken, and wings. Is he a hero? He does go to UA High. Rage is written all over his face as he stares at you and the man who touches you.
"Make me."
With that, Amajiki wraps tentacles around the man and yanks him away from you, causing you to loose balance and fall to your knees. The villain tries to fight Amajikj, but does not succeed. Since when was he so strong? You have never viewed him as such, but now, you see how wonderfully strong he is.
The fight is over quickly, and he comes running toward you, wearing his panic promptly. Crouching onto the ground, he looks you up and down, checking your for injuries. There is a scratch on your cheek, bruises up and down your arms and waist, and tears covering your cheeks. Without thinking, you throw your arms around him and cry on his shoulder, him
stroking your back.
Softly, he whispers, "It's okay now. You're safe. It's all over. I won't let anyone else do that to you. I swear. I'Il protect you."
Never once have you heard him speak without stuttering, but perhaps the adrenaline and worry has beat out his shy nature.
"I was so scared. I didn't know what to do and I- I still don't know and-"
"I know. Right now, all you have to do is take care of yourself. I'm right here."
"Thank you. Thank you so much."
"It's not a problem. Anything for you." Slowly, you calm down, and he pushes you away from his chest and wipes your tears away. "Where have you been lately?"
"What do you mean?"
"You feel so distant lately, and I- I missed you a bit." He stares off to the side at the ground.
"I'm sorry. It's just been a lot."
"You can always come to me, though I-" He trails off as if he is too afraid to finish his statement.
"You what? Amajiki, possibly.. maybe... do you..I don't know...like me? J-just a little."
Blushing, he goes, "What?! W-w- what gave you t- that idea?" Flustered, you avert your eyes.
"It's just that... Togata kinda hinted at it and then right now."
"Gah...I'm gonna kill him."
"It's okay. I was wrong. No big deal-"
"N-no. You're r-r-right. I d-do."
"What? You do? Really? You mean it?"
"Y-y-yeah."
"Then will you be my boyfriend? Pretty please? With cherry on top?"
"Er- I-I-I mean, if you w-w-w-want me to. But I-" Your arms shoot into the air.
"YES!! HAHA!!! I DID IT!!! I WON OVER AMAJIKI!! MISSION IMPOSSIBLE NOW MADE POSSIBLE!!"
"W- w-what?"
"I honestly never thought I could win you over like this and wasn't even gonna try, but now I'm super happy."
"W- what? But you...you're beautiful and-"
"Not as pretty as you. You're wonderful."
"I- I- uhh." You pat his head.
"It's fine now. We'll be together from now on."

"You're what?" Adachi seems so shocked.
"Amajiki and I are dating now, which is why he walked me to school today.
"I- but why? What happened to the other girl you saw him with? Aren't you gonna explain-"
"The other girl was Togata's girl friend that Amajiki is friends with, so nothing to worry about there."
"How could you?"
"Eh? What're you talking-"
"I have liked you this whole time, but you never looked at me! Boy bestie, boy bestie, boy bestie-that's all I ever was! I loved you! I stood up for you! I protected you! But that wasn't even enough for you! What does he have that I don't? What is he that I'm not? What can I do to-"
"I- Isamu, what are you even talking about?"
"Stop being so oblivious! Just look at me already!"
"But-" He grabs your wrist.
"You're so stupidly dense and oblivious, but it only makes me want you all the more. Please... Who was there for you more? And besides, you barely even know that guy. But you know me. Even your parents love me! They want us to be together! That's their hope! But you still act like I don't matter. We could be happy! I'm perfect for you and everyone sees it-"
"Perfect or whatever, that isn't what I want. I want Amajiki and-"
"But why? Why him? Why not me? Am I not good enough? Do I need to look better? I'll get plastic surgery if I have to-"
"Stop. Please. If you have to change to please someone, then they're not worth it-"
"I'd change my entire identity for you. Do you want me to act like a shy boy? I will. I'll do whatever it takes. Look however you want, act however you want-just please. Choose me."
"I can't. I've already chosen Amajiki, and I am very happy with my choice." Pulling your wrist from him, your gaze turns cold and harsh.
"But- you-you-"
"I'm going to class."
You run off, and he stares at you. Why? Why not him? What is it about Amajiki that makes you want him? Then, the tanner boy sobs.
Once school is over, you get ready to head home, but get stopped when a person grabs your arm roughly. Turning your head, you find a girl that used to bully you until Adachi got her to stop. She seems angry, and you do not have a clue as to why. Did you do something?
"Hey, fatty." She says. "What the heck?"
"P- pardon?"
"Who do you think you are for rejecting Adachi? You already don't deserve him, so you should take what you can get."
"I already have a boyfriend."
"A boyfriend, eh? Like you could really get one. Now either march back in there fix things, or I'll completely redo that hideous face of yours."
"I thought you wanted me to stay away from him."
"Yeah, well I don't want him crying, either."
"Either way, it isn't your business so leave me alone." She slaps you.
"Say that again. I dare you."
"Mind. Your. Business."
She raises her hand to slap you again, but a tentacle wraps around her wrist. Both you and the other girl turn your heads to find Amajiki. He seems angry.
"Don't you dare touch her again."
"Amajiki!" You smile.
"Suneater?! What the heck are you doing-"
"I'm here to see my girlfriend. Now leave her alone." Flustered, she nods, so he releases her and she runs. "A- are you okay?" Nodding, you run over to him.
"Yup! I'm all good!"' He stares at your red cheek.
"How many times did she hit you?"
"Just once."
"One times too many. Let's head home."
The walk home is silent, and at your house, he bids you farewell silently though smiles. You decide not to mention Adachi, not wanting to upset him.
Unfortunately, the secret does not last long. You find Adachi yelling at Amajiki, saying that your boyfriend has no right to you. Angrily, you run and stand in between them, arms out to shield your shy elf boy.
"Stop it! Leave him alone! It was my choice, so you have no right to be upset with him! Be mad at me, yell at me. Just leave him alone."
"I will not. He has no right. You're mine. I love you, and I always have. I've been there for you, even when nobody else was. i'Ve protected you when people just watched as you suffered. You're mine!"
"I've heard enough." Amajiki snaps."She isn't an object to claim. She's a human being who should be treated as such. Leave her be already."
"You, shut up!" Adachi tries to grab your wrist, but Amajiki grabs his.
"Leave. Or I'll call the cops for sexual harassment."
"Fine." Adachi wrenches out of Amajiki's grasp. "You'll regret this, Y/n. Especially after you realize that I have treated you better than he ever could."
Since then, you have not seen Adachi, and while you miss your friend, you are sure he would not have been easy to deal with so long as you are with Amajiki. As for your relationship with him, you are very happy and are getting married in a month. Truly, a happier ending than you could have ever asked for.

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