Heartless

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It was Club time now, and I had hidden myself away in the bathroom, staring into the mirror.

My eyes. Green irises with little black pupils. No dilating to show love or happiness, no contracting to show fear, anger, or hatred. They were already too small. They were just little black dots in a sea of dark green. They didn't let light in, but I saw well through darkness.

How did people even think they were pretty? Did they not understand eyes? If someone came along who knows how an eye works, I bet a million dollars they would not say my eyes are "pretty".

It is a fact that it is difficult for me to love. Not saying I can't love or I can't be happy. I can, it just takes a great deal for me to do so.

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MORI'S P.O.V.

Her eyes. First time I've ever noticed them. I've been focusing too hard on her characteristics and habits to notice her physical traits.

Today she stepped out of the girl's bathroom after being in there almost thirty minutes. Both Hikaru and I went over to see if she was alright.

First thing I noticed was how blown up his eyes were when he looked at Dany. Second thing was that hers stayed the same small size. Then I realised something. Hikaru loved her, but she didn't feel the same.

I patted her head and walked away, thinking to myself.

So this is why she didn't date. She says it's because feelings and emotions are too much to handle, but that might not be the only case. She physically and emotionally can not love. She has too much hatred stored up inside her, she just can't deal with anything other than that.

This explains why she doesn't care if someone likes her, why she hardly responds when someone tells her they love her, why she doesn't get crushes or likes people. She's incapable of it.

But it's not entirely impossible. She loves Natsu and her father, and she probably loves Shane/Courtney to an extent. She can still love, it just might take a load of effort.

I looked over once again to see Hikaru in her face, and she faked a smile for him. Why isn't she hitting him or telling him off? A few days ago, she seemed better around him, now she's completely allowing everything. What had happened?

I kept watching, and they seemed oblivious to everyone else in the room. Maybe Hikaru finally confessed his feelings to her?

My thoughts were confirmed when Hikaru leaned in and kissed Dany on her lips, and she accepted it.

I looked around and saw the other members looking in shock. "WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME?!" Kaoru yelled, marching forward. They separated and Dany slightly blushed. "Whatcha talking about, Kaoru?" Hikaru said casually. "You two! When did it happen?!" He asked. "Um, last night?" Hikaru answered.

"That's why you weren't there when I woke up!" "Yeah." Hikaru shrugged. "Aw, congrats, guys." Haruhi smiled. "You two are cute together!" Honey spoke up. "Don't hurt my baby girl!" Tamaki cried, and Kyoya had nothing to say, he just scrawled in his notebook.

I didn't have anything to say either. I didn't speak, or I might regret something. I turned away and stared at the wall. I felt red hot anger flowing through me, and I didn't know why. I felt as if I wanted to hurt Hikaru, I wanted to kill him.

I wanted Dany.

I was jealous.