Heartless

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"I can't keep breaking up with you,
You messed with my heart babe,
Now it's black and blue,
Love isn't fair,
So I swear,
That this time,
This is the end.

And I can't keep lying,
Lying to myself,
Oh I'm thinking you'll love me right,
But you never will
It's too much to bear (too much to bear),
So I swear (this time I swear),
That this time,
This is the end (I mean it baby).

Oh

Said I'm gonna leave
But I'm never leavin'
Now I know that I really don't need
You had your fun
Now the party's done
And you back on the floor
As I walk out the door
Boy we're through

Oh

All the tears I've cried
All the lonely nights
Boy I lost my mind
But now I'm sure
(now I'm sure, now I'm sure)

You can say what you want
But love isn't here anymore

And I won't be missing, missing you,
And no one can love you,
The way I used to do,
But love isn't fair,
And I swear,
That this time,
This is the end,
Oh.

I promise baby
This is the end
You know it's the end
Oh-hey-yeah
This is the end."

The song played on repeat as I stood in the shower, contemplating life. I wonder what kind of person I would be if I didn't have this act as a constant in my life.

I wonder if I should drop it already and be myself. I wonder if I can drop. I wonder who I really am. I wonder if I'll like myself if I ever found out who I am.

I finally got out of the shower and dried off and got in some clothes and turned my phone and exited to my room, where the whole club minus Mori was waiting.

I froze and furrowed my brows. "But I locked the door..." I said. "Extra key." Haruhi said and I nodded. "So." I hummed and sat on my bed. "You're all here for a reason. What is it?" I asked.

"What did you and Takashi say to each other?" Honey asked. I gave a soft smile. "That's between Mori and I, Honey." I answered. "Okay. Why were you crying?" Hikaru asked. "That's my business." I said.

"Well excuse me for trying to care." Hikaru said and I sighed. "Sorry, but it's just something that only I need to worry about." I said and he scoffed. "Honestly, how are the two of you still together?" Haruhi asked. "Free sex, why do you think?" I said sarcastically.

"Look, we couldn't hear a thing you two said yesterday, but Mori seems to be in a better mood, and now you're in a bad mood. We just want to know what's going on." Tamaki said and I sighed and lied back on my bed. "You guys can ask all the questions you want. Doesn't mean I'm going to answer them." I said, crossing my arms.

Haruhi was soon in my vision, pulling me into a sitting position. "Look, we're trying to be nice here and see what's wrong with our friends! The least you can do is cooperate!" She said and I smirked and words came tumbling out of my mouth before I could stop them.

"Who ever said something was wrong with me?" And with that simple of a sentence, all of their faces went into complete shock.

I gave a satisfied smirk. "Now, I'm pretty tired, so I'd appreciate if you all left so I could get some sleep." I said, and like good little boys and girl, they left. But not Hikaru.

"Why are we still together?" He asked softly and I sighed and got up, standing in front of him. He looked into my eyes and I leaned in and gave him the most loving kiss I could physically give.

"Because I happen to like you. And because you happen to return the feelings." I said, lacing my fingers through the hair on the back of his head. Hikaru wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to kiss me even more.