Heartless

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I was lying in my hotel bed in my underwear, scrolling through shit on my phone. I hummed to myself and lied in awkward positions.

My door opened and closed, and I looked over to see Hikaru and Kaoru locking the door. "Um...?" I said and they turned to me with wide eyes.

"Kaoru, look away." Hikaru said and threw his hand over his brother's face. "Sorry, Dany!" Kaoru apologised, trying to bow, but he did it very clumsily.

"Hikaru, calm down. I'm not naked or something." I said, getting up and grabbing some sweatpants. "But you're young, and you aren't married, and you're mine!" Hikaru stuttered, his eyes on my bottom half. I snickered, rolling my eyes. "Possessive, much? Anyway, what do you guys want?" I asked, pulling on sweatpants and a tank top.

Hikaru uncovered Kaoru's eyes, who started to answer. "Mori-senpai was being kinda scary." Kaoru said. "Scary how?" I asked, sitting back on my bed, grabbing my phone and shoving it in my pocket. "He was being silent and glaring at everything!" Kaoru said and I laughed as I walked over to the mirror to fix my smudged eyeliner and clumped up mascara.

"That's how Mori is all the time." I said, combing the clumps out of my eyelashes. "No, I mean he was deadly silent." Kaoru said. "He even spoke bad to Honey." Hikaru said and I spun around with wide eyes. "Nuh uh." I gasped. "Uh huh." They both said.

"And why are you telling me this?" I asked, putting the cap back on my mascara, twisting it shut. "Well, you two are close..." Kaoru said uncomfortably. "And your name was in the mix of his grumbling for a few seconds." Hikaru said.

"Okay, I'm going to go talk to him." I said, unlocking my door and walking quickly downstairs. I saw Tamaki, Kyoya, Honey, and Haruhi at a table looking at a fuming yet silent Mori-senpai. The twins were behind me and joined the other table as I walked up to Mori.

He looked up at me and I took a chair and turned it around and sat in it with my legs on either side of the backrest. "Mori." I said and he stared straight ahead. "Wanna tell me what's up?" I asked softly.

"It's been bothering me..." He said even softer, and I tilted my head slightly in question. "What's that?" I asked. He turned his head to make eye contact with me.

"Your façade." He said and I sighed and leaned back a bit. "We promised, Mori..." "I know. But it's bothering me." He said and I bit my lip. "What part of it?" I asked, looking back at him.

"You changed your hair again." He said and I broke a smile for a second. "Thanks for noticing. What exactly does my hair have to do with anything?" I asked. "You change it often." He said and I nodded. "Yeah, I've noticed." "No, you told me you don't remember the person you used to be, or who you really are. You change your hair almost as often as you change personalities." He said and I was silenced with a gaping jaw.

"I think you change so much about yourself so that subconsciously you don't have to worry about remembering or figuring out who you really are." He turned back to staring out the window.

I was just in a stunned silence. I didn't want to admit it, but he had a fair point.

"It's also bothering of your relationship with Hikaru." He said and I took a quick glance and found that we were talking so soft they couldn't hear shit of what we were saying.

"Look, I'm working on it." I hissed at him, and he turned back to stare at me. "You even said it yourself. You're just pity dating him." He said and I sighed. "And I've done some thinking on the subject, and he is actually quite compatible for me." I said, crossing my arms on the chair.

"You mean he's nice to you and your heart went soft." He said and I laughed, ducking my head. "Shut up." I said, looking back up at him and he looked a little shocked.

"You shut up because you don't know shit." I said, looking away from him to give myself to clear the tears from my eyes. "But you told me -" He started and I stood up and started to walk away.

Mori got up and caught my wrist, and I turned and punched him in the jaw. "I still have my façade. That's all I have left, away no you are not taking that me." I said, turning back around and walked past the others and up to my room, wiping tears from my cheeks that they could clearly.

I grabbed my phone and put on music to drown my crying in case anyone came to check up on me.

I'll be fucked if I let this act go.