Heartless

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"Well. Care to explain yourself?" Tamaki asked.

I looked up at them. "Don't even think for a second that I don't regret every single one of those moments, and more." I managed to get out.

Hikaru came over and hugged me, and I let him, hugging him back. "He was one of my best friends..." I cried into Hikaru's shoulder. "And now he's dead." I said and Hikaru rubbed my back.

"Why would you push her like that, Kyoya?" Kaoru asked. "Curiosity." Kyoya said and I glared at him. "Curiosity for what? To see if I'm human? To see if I'm the monster they portray me as?" I hiccuped and Hikaru patted my back.

"You're lying." Mori spoke up, and I glared at him. "How dare you. How dare you. I open up to you one time about how I was feeling at one moment, and you suddenly think you know everything about me?" I said and he stared at me. "I know more than enough about you to know that you still don't feel bad that that boy died because you said so." Mori shrugged.

"Mori!" Hikaru said and my jaw dropped. "And what makes you say that?!" I wiped furiously under my eyes and stepped towards him. "Easy. You can't feel." He shrugged and I laughed sarcastically. "Wow. Great reasoning. Any proof of that?" I said again, my voice cracking.

"Yeah. You said it to me yourself." He shrugged again. "I don't ever remember saying anything along the lines of 'I can't feel'." I said, hiccuping a little, and still wiping tears away. "Oh, it was around the time when you told me you didn't like Hikaru." He said and I panicked internally, but I played it off by laughing a bit.

"Mori, of course I like Hikaru." I said and he just gave me a knowing look. "No you don't. You said so, twice now." He said. "If I didn't like him, why am I dating him?" I asked. "Because you're scared to break his heart for your own selfish reasons." He said. Oh okay. Now he's using my words against me. I can play that game.

"Mori, you and everyone else saw what I did to that guy that asked me out up there. I obviously didn't like him, so I turned him down. Now, why didn't I turn down Hikaru when he asked me, just like I did the other guy?" I asked and saw he was a bit stuck.

"Yeah, Mori, of course she likes Hikaru." Haruhi said. "Yeah, we've all seen them together." Kaoru nodded.

"Why are you trying so hard?" I asked Mori. "I'm trying to break down the façade you have on." He said and I chuckled and shook my head. "You can try all you want. It's not going anywhere. I've already tried." I said and walked over, grabbing my bag.

"I'm still going to try!" Mori called. "Well, good fucking luck to you!" I called as I walked out.