!!!TW!!!
Suicide references, unkind thoughts
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Noah
Eviction day. Safe haven gone. Where else can I seek asylum? My room? No. Nowhere is safe but here, where they don't let the lions in. I forget how many days I've spent here. When in a room full of white and a building without sound, time seems to slip and change against its tracker.
I would have to go back to lessons again. I remember the first lesson I had when I got back from my 'event' last year; English literature with Mr Queen. It was a right laugh.
We were asked to write a poem about something that happened to us over the holiday season, and to 'embrace our inner emotions' or some yoga shit like that. I already knew that there were some horrible rumours going around about my family that I wanted to crush as a result of my absence, and I wanted to teach Patiens a lesson. What he said earlier to me in front of his mates wasn't right. I wrote an absolute banger of a masterpiece. I swear to god, I should be poet laureate or some fancy title like that. I entitled my work of genius, 'In the Quiet'.
In the Quiet
we know things
but we're too full up
so we drain what we know
so we don't blow up
instead
we blow up things
so we're safe inside
full up in the knowledge
to say that we tried
i know things.
the car alarm below
is constantly ringing
beneath my window.
shut up.
i'm trying to combust
whilst i'm staying alive
so that they can rest
and say that they tried
the glass keeps moving
as it weakens the rain
but the rain will come back
to haunt it again
reincarnation
i hear no dogs bark
just the buzzing of nothing
i lie on my back
and stare at the ceiling
i count all the sheep
lined upon my hand
and they walk away secrets
as i try to not stand
empty.
i open my eyes
and close their lids
the quiet is louder
my existence is hid
i fall back asleep
just as i woke up
i drained what i know
so i didn't blow up
instead
i drowned all my dreams
and faced the ceiling
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