Alex Turner Imagines<3

broken promises

THE CAR ERA

We were arguing once again but it wasn't over something stupid. It was over Heroin. Alex started using it again and last time I checked, he almost died.

We're both sitting in the kitchen and we look so exhausted for completely different reasons.

"Why do you have to be so insistent on doing the opposite of what I ask for?" He argued

Alex's voice was filled with a deep hurt and he looks even more exhausted than before as he and I argue back.

"What do you mean i'm insistent on doing opposite of what you ask for? last time I remembered, you promised me that you'd fucking stop heroin because you almost died the first time" I yelled

"I know... And I'm sorry! I'm just... I just... I just love the way it makes me feel and it just feels too good. I can't explain it and I want to stop but I just can't. I just need help and I don't know what to do." He cried

"Alex walking in on you pushing that fucking needle in, is destroying me more than it does to you" I said raising my voice at him

He flinched at my loud tone and he just looks at me with tears building up in his eyes.

"I'm sorry... And I know I keep going back on my promises but I'm trying so hard. I'm trying the best I can but I don't know why I keep going back to it and I just... I don't want to hurt you. I swear." He sobbed

He looks at me with his eyes filled with such sadness and so much regret.

"you already did" I said quietly

"No... Don't say it like that. I know my actions have made me hurt you... I swear I'll always regret it." He said as he walked over to me and held my hands in his

He bites his lip and just looks at me with tears rolling down his cheeks as well.

"I can't ever live without you... I can't. You're all I have and I promise I'll always love you. Please don't ever forget that. I love you." He said in a shaky voice

"Alex I cant fucking trust you with your stupid promises" I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose

"I know... I know I've made some stupid promises. But I'm trying to be better. I can't be perfect... I just can't." He sniffled

More tears roll down my cheeks.

"I can't ever have you think that I do anything to hurt you on purpose. I never want to hurt you. I just want to treat you like you always deserve to be treated... Like you're made of gold. Like you're precious and so loved." He cried

"You're fucking going back to rehab" I said sternly and he grew pale and his eyes widened. He begged for me to not take him.

"Please, please, please no" He cried

"Please" He sobbed and hugged me tight.

"No rehab" He sniffled

I walked upstairs and didn't say anything.

Alex looks down and he sits on the couch in quiet shame. After a few minutes, he finally collects himself and he walks upstairs behind me with a soft sigh. He looks at me and he just looks sad with a guilty expression on his face. He can't bring himself to say anything.

He just follows me and sits down on the bed beside me, looking at the floor.

"I'm sorry for all of this. I'm sorry for being such a mess and I'm sorry for... Making you feel miserable." He whispered

I started to sob into my hands.

He hugs me tightly and he can feel my sobbing.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" He whispered