𝗙𝗢𝗘𝗦 // 𝗧.𝗸

𝟎𝟎𝟒

𝖢𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝟦 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀:

"We both act silly, but we just wanna be loved."

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TOM POV.

I watch lou wiped her tears away, a few tears dropped at the screen of her cellphone. Why is she crying? I don't like to see her cry, i want to know why.

"Hey, what's wrong? Did i say something that made you upset?.." I move closer to her. What am i doing, a few minutes we were enemies.. But now I'm here confronting her as if we were close..

"You know nothing." She mumbled. "Well yes i don't, obviously. But lou, you can tell me everything." I told her.

"Since when do you care." She says, stubbornly. "Exactly, i don't care. But i just want you to know that I'm here to listen, even if you don't talk, i will still listen." I respond.

"Please just stop. I don't want you here, i don't want to told you everything. I have nothing to told you about." She looked at the other way. I can see the hurt on her eyes, she hold tears that she want to cry.

"Lou," i pull her face into me. "I don't care if anything you say make you hurt, we're a complete stranger in each other's privacy. We barely don't know each other, we both hate each other. But i just want you to express what you truly feel, you're a person and i know you deserve better on what you are feeling right now. I'm sorry." I pull her into a hug.

It's the first time I've ever done this with someone, except for bill. It's the first time I'm the first one who will touch a girl, I'm suck on doing first moves, but right now i just feel.. I did it perfectly.

Lou didn't respond and hugged me back, she sobbed on my chest that left her tears visible at my t-shirt. I have never see her cry, i hate seeing her cry. I brush my hand at her back, gently Patting her back.

Maybe, i did like to see her mad, but not as she cry. i hate her, she hate me. We're enemies, with behind the curtains and covers. We both treated like one, but not like this. I didn't care of her feelings back then, but now.. I just feel a slight spark to my soul that's screaming to confront her. And i did it.

Lou pulled away and sniffled. "I don't know why you are doing this but, thank you." She thank me, her smile sparkling with little joy as her eyes still hurt..

"I know, let's just shrugged it off." I told her, moving the topic somewhere. Lou laugh slightly and turn her attention to her phone, i saw her touch the logo through Instagram.

I peeked slightly and saw her search into her account. She like to post into Instagram, she's famous and have over three million followers to her account. She have thousands of likes each post and she only fallow three people. Bill, gustav and georg.

I won't deny, she's a real photogenic and that's why people love her. She act rude and bossy but she is actually just good with people she likes. Well, sometimes.

She's a real troublemaker, a queen bee on the school and an academic achiever through inside.

"Who's that?" I ask her. A guy is holding her waist and she was smiling joyfully. I never saw him, he don't look familiar. "Max." She respond.

Oh, so he is the guy who die on a car accident.

"Why do you still have a picture of him?" I ask her once again. "Well, a part of me cherish everything. And that everything is him, he was my home and always the last and first." She smile.

"What about you? I bet you have a long time girlfriend." She turn to me. "Sadly i don't have. I don't have that love at first sight relationship, i can't barely stay with one girl. Sometimes i want to blame it all on me, but for me it just don't feel right. People leave and you have to accept that, too young and maybe it's just a sign that this generation the things we expect don't actually happen." I says, looking at the other way.

"Well i guess you really have a rough time on love." Lou chuckled. "I mean, we all have. Everybody don't actually believe in love, it's a special force that you don't even believe exist." I replied.

"Well for me, since max die i'd come to different guy like everyday, sleeps into different beds and waking up numb and useless. I don't know what's the problem of me, i just wanna fuck and the only way of escaping the cage I'm into on my heart is having a sexual assault with anyone. I literally sound like a total, whore. I fucking hate it." She says.

"I guess we both have the same side." I chuckled, looking at her.

She smile. I'd never saw her smile, but in my eyes i really like to see her smile like that. I don't know what's happening, i want to hate her but my heart softened every time i talk to her, told her things she don't know and we both open to each other.

"How many sex have you have, tom?" Lou question. "Do you have to know that?" I respond. "Well if your comfortable enough, the night is long for you to tell me." she smiles.

"Alright." I begin. I started to told her everything, and everytime she question i always answer her with my honest thoughts. we both know I'm a play boy, I'm a huge dick when it comes to talking on dirty things. It's always been me, one call of a random chick and open my pants and go is my hobbies.

I don't wanna mind it, i actually like telling lou my side. She's a great listener and doesn't judge me. I want to think that she was drunk, i want to think that if we are done we simply act like we both don't have a proper conversation and return to be foes again. It's actually stupid, i want to be close with her, i want to be her friend.

No, A different term of friend.

"What about you? How many sex have you have?" I ask her. It's time for her to tell me, this is the moment where i want to hear her next. On what's her past and experience. We're still young but thinking like we're both old.

"I don't remember when's the last time, but i know i like it to happen again with someone i will certainly trust. A person that i will give my whole heart, I want to open my heart again with someone but i just couldn't know how." She admitted.

"Well i hope you'll find yours." I told her, i stare up to the sky where stars are shining brightly. "Look, you look like that star." I pointed out the brightest star in the sky i can ever found.

"Are you saying I'm a stone tom?" She says, i raise my hands in surrender. It made her burst into laughter, she's back at this joyful side lou again,

I like that actually, i like her-.

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𝖧𝗂 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾! 𝖨𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗇𝗃𝗈𝗒𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗉𝖺𝗋𝗍 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝖿𝗈𝗋𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗏𝗈𝗍𝖾 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗌, 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎'𝗋𝖾 𝗄𝗂𝗇𝖽 𝖾𝗇𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗉𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗌𝖾 𝗍𝖾𝗅𝗅 𝗆𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁𝗍𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗉𝖺𝗋𝗍, 𝗍𝗒!