I can't do this

Im Sorry What ?

⚠️TW//ABUSE AND SELF HARM MENTIONS ⚠️

Y/N POV

As you start to wake up the bright light hits your eyes. Squinting around your very disoriented, trying to work out where you are. You look up to see Lucy and Leah removing the glass out of your foot. It doesn't really hurt, more like a dull stabbing pain, however the agonising pain in your chest and ribs hurts more and more every time you take a breathe. As you start to fidget from the discomfort your eyes lock with Lucy's. She sends a small smile your way catching the attention of Leah who now notices your awake.

"There's just one last piece and your foot will be good as new" lucy giggles at how clumsy you are. A smile creeps across your face as her infectious laugh warms your heart. Suddenly the laughter disappears as lucy clears her throat with a more serious look on her face. "We need to talk." Instantly your heart drops, you know the questions are going to be fired towards you. Trying to avoid the talking you look down at your hands picking at your nails trying to distract your mind. You don't even know how to reply to her if she starts asking for answers. Lucy continues to speak "There's something I should have told you when you came to my house the first time. This is a big thing and it's going to change your life." You sit there puzzled as to what she's going on about. Thinking back to the first time you met what happened that was so drastic. "I will always love you remember that" she adds. Why would she love you? She doesn't even know you?

"ok what's wrong " you say trying to work out what the hell is going on. You feel slight relief knowing she doesn't want to talk about your home life, shit home. Your going to be in so much trouble when you go back. He's going to have a field day beating you.

"Right erm there's no easy way to say this. So I'm just going to come out and say it. I am your mum" she blurts out.

You freeze, wait does that mean your free, before you can process what she says you talk back " I'm sorry what???"

"I know it's a lot to take in, are you ok" without even thinking you bounce up from the sofa limping across to lucy jumping into her arms for the biggest hug you've ever had. You embrace lucy as tight as ever not wanting to let go. Nuzzling your head into her shoulder you start to play with the strings on her hoodie, she's saved you from 7 years of hell. She holds you, gliding her free hand through your scraggly hair. You feel the safest you've ever felt.

Not wanting the hug to end you wrap your arms around Lucy's neck and hold on tight. Leah decides to break the silence. "How about we get an early night and then we will have a talk in the morning."

Reluctantly you nod your head, not wanting to leave Lucy's side. You have so many questions and what ifs circling around your head. If she left you once what's to say she won't do it again. What if she gets fed up of you. All of a sudden your arm starts to sting, you can feel the material of your hoodie digging into your wounds Mixed with all the sweat you're producing as Lucy's house is boiling. Breaking you out of thought Lucy speaks up.

"We have 3 spare bedrooms, you can choose one and we will make it yours" Lucy smiles squeezing you tight. 'We', does that mean Lucy and Leah live together. You didn't really question it last time you thought Leah was just staying at Lucy's.

You decide to question it. " I saw your bedroom last time Lucy, can I see yours Leah." You say excitedly as Lucy's room was insane. You've never seen a bedroom so big in your life. Leah and Lucy both break into laughter.

You furrow your brows, removing your arms from around your mums neck and crossing them."What's so funny ??" You ask, it makes you feel uneasy when people laugh at what you say when it's not funny.

" y/n this is my girlfriend" she says proudly sending a smirk towards Leah.  You're delighted does this mean you get two mums?? Wow your so lucky, you can see in leahs eyes how much she adores you and your mum. You slowly get up from Lucy's knee and hobble over to Leah reaching your arms out to take her in an embrace. Just like Lucy she holds you close rubbing circles on your back.