Mija Priestess

Part 62

When I awoke the next morning Damian was already wide awake next to me, sat up and watching TV with a coffee in his hands. The dark circles under his eyes prominently showing me just how little sleep he had had. I groaned as the light hit my sensitive eyes and the jackhammer in my head started up. "Oh god, how much did I drink last night?"

"Too much Mija. There is a glass of water and some paracetamol on your nightstand, take them and try and go back to sleep if you can. It is still fairly early considering the time that we went to bed."

I did as I was told and drank my water with 2 paracetamol but instead of going back to sleep, I made myself sit up. "Are you ok Papi? What are you doing up so early? Did I make a complete idiota of myself last night?"

Damian looked at me and it seemed to me as though his eyes were filled with pity. He sighed and looked down before passing me the stick I had peed on only 12 hours before. "Why didn't you tell me Mija? Is this why you were so adamant last night about wanting to make a baby?"

"Lo siento mucho mi amor." Tears starting stinging my eyes as I saw the hurt in his eyes.

"English Sophie, don't confuse yourself."

I took a deep breath and explained quickly. "I'm really sorry baby, I didn't tell you because I wasn't sure. Rhea came to me last night for a tampon and I didn't have any and then realised that I hadn't needed any since June. I've had no symptoms so Rhea suggested I test just to make sure. I nipped to the pharmacy during your match so that you wouldn't know as I didn't want to scare you so close to such a big match. Having a baby is a big thing and I know we want them in the future but we haven't been together a year yet so I didn't know what you would say or do if I was pregnant." I could feel myself waffling and rambling but knew I needed to get out what it was that I needed to say or I wouldn't say it. I started twiddling my thumbs and looking down at the bedsheets.

Damian looked at me confused before laughing and passing me a box. "Sophie! Mija! You didn't take a pregnancy test." I looked up at Damian confused before taking the box off of him. "Soph, you bought a menopause test Mija. You tested negative for the menopause."

I started laughing and crying both at the same time. "No wonder the pharmacist asked me if I was sure I needed it. It was on the shelf with the pregnancy tests, I must have picked it up by accident as I was in a rush." We sat there laughing with each other for a few minutes before realisation hit me. "But wait, does that mean that I still could be pregnant? What about all the alcohol that I was drinking last night?" I couldn't help but feel guilty for drinking so much when there was a chance that I was actually pregnant.

Damian wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into him. "Mija, don't panic. It isn't as though you have been getting drunk all the time, it was one night. We will go and get you a test today as I would rather just double check. Do you feel pregnant?"

"I don't know. I have never been pregnant before, how would I know what being pregnant feels like?" I felt myself panic a little but noticed that Damian was now yawning and looking tired. "Have you actually had any sleep mi cielo?"

Damian placed his cup down on his nightstand and slowly slid down in bed so that he was now lying back down, he lifted his arm and gestured for me to lay my head on his chest. My safe space. "No Mija, I didn't sleep. I was worried about you."

"About me? Why were you worried about me?"

"I thought that you were going through this on your own. Part of me was scared you were leaving me because you thought you couldn't give me children. When I first picked up the test though my initial feeling was disappointment."

I interrupted Damian. "I'm sorry I should have told you, I don't like the thought of you being disappointed with me."

"Soph, I wasn't disappointed with you." Damian sighed and exhaled before continuing. "I was disappointed because I thought it was a negative pregnancy test. I was disappointed because it meant that you weren't pregnant with my child. When I saw it was a menopause test I was saddened that you weren't talking to me and you were potentially going through something life changing like that alone. Then I started thinking that we couldn't have children and looked into what I could do to help you as well as adoption, surrogacy and any other options that would allow me to have a child with you. It just made me realise how much I love you and that you are most definitely the girl I want to spend my life with and raise a family with."

I started crying as I snuggled into Damian's chest. "So you were more disappointed about me not being pregnant than the fact that I kept it from you?"

"Si Mija. Now let's get some sleep, we can grab the test after. I doubt a few hours will make any difference." And with that we snuggled down and both went back to sleep.