Darkest Desires [Joel Miller]

11

The next morning I woke up with the worst hangover. My head was dizzy and the only thing I needed was water. A huge glass of water. I tried to crawl out of the bed, memories of last night rushing back. I tried to forget about it but I could still feel the taste of his lips...

Thankfully, my shift will be at 6 p.m. today, which means I had time to recover from last night's drinking. But no matter how much I tried, I still couldn't forget my feelings towards Joel. The worst thing was, I couldn't talk to Sarah about it. We shared everything with each other and yet, this was the one thing I can't tell her about. I heard a faint knock on the door and Sarah's voice, asking to come in.

"How are you?"she asked, handing me a glass of water. "Thought you might need that."

"You're a lifesaver, Sarah,"I told her, taking a glass of water from her hands and drinking it all with one go.

 Sarah chuckled. "Glad I could help."

"How do you not have hangovers?"I placed the glass on the bedside table, looking at her.

"Guess I'm in better shape than you,"she teased. "By the way. Alex asked about you."

"Alex? I don't remember..."

Sarah rolled her eyes. "Really? You danced with him the whole night and you can't remember him?"

"Now that you mention it..."I looked at her, trying to memorize Alex's face. "I remember a little bit."

"He was worried about you. Asking if you made it home safely and how is your health."

I smiled. "That's... very sweet of him."

"Seems like he liked you and you liked him,"Sarah said, nudging me gently.

I wanted to say I actually liked someone else but I stopped myself before I could reveal anything. Sarah would definitely ask questions which I didn't know how to answer. I can't just say I liked his dad and that last night, we kissed. I knew how bad it all sounded.

"Where's Joel?"I asked Sarah, trying to be casual about all of this.

"I don't know,"Sarah shrugged shoulders. "He wasn't in the best mood in the morning, again, and he rushed out after breakfast. Didn't say anything where he went."

Shit, did I really ruin everything with that kiss between us? He was definitely avoiding me and I didn't blame him. I cursed myself, wishing I'd never kissed him in the first place.

"Your dad is always in a bad mood,"I told her, crawling out of bed to change clothes.

Sarah chuckles. "I guess you're right. Maybe he needs someone new in his life. He hasn't gone on a proper date since my mom left." 

Maybe he needs someone new in his life... I didn't know how to react to that statement. I knew things between us could never work out but thinking about him with another woman was... not easy, to say the least. 

"Makes sense,"I said, trying to keep it cool.  

"You need someone new too,"Sarah said, looking at me. "What about Alex?"

I looked at her, confused. "What about him?"

"Well, did you like him? He seemed to like you."

"Sarah, please..."I looked at her, shaking my head. "I don't need anyone new. He was just a fun dance partner, nothing else."

"Oh, c'mon!"Sarah exclaimed.

I shaked my head, staying true to myself. "I don't need anyone new. Alex was nice but I truly don't want any man right now."

Except for your dad...

Sarah raised her hand in agreement. "Fine, however you wish, Daisy."

We chatted for a couple of minutes but then Sarah left me alone, letting me rest. I was thankful that I didn't have to see Joel today because I didn't know how to act around him after yesterday's... incident. After the incident that I started. Our kiss kept playing over and over in my head and I remembered every single detail about Joel. I kept thinking: did I really ruin everything between us? But at the same time, he kissed me back and not once pushed me away. Did it mean anything or was I just making it all up in my head? 

I needed to forget about these feelings towards him. In the end, it was best for us all.

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Happy new year, my lovelies! 

So sorry I haven't updated this story but I had crisis with ideas. So if you have any ideas of what might happen in this fanfic, let me know :D I don't have everything all planned out with this fanfic so new ideas are welcomed :D