Avery Sturniolo ♡

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Tw, i guess, talks of abortion

After i got home, i immediately went to my room and cried. i think Nick came into my room and cuddled me till i fell asleep. When i woke up i needed to start thinking about what i was going to do i didnt want to get rid of it because what if that kid was the cure to cancer one day and i know if i aborted it i would feel so bad and get even more depressed but at the same time i wasnt in the right mental space to keep a baby and raise one and i was to young and i dont really wanna go threw all the childbirth pregnancy stuff or atleast not right now so that plus the fact i dont want to give my kid to someone else so now i dont know what to do so i decided to ask nick who was still right next to me "nicky?" I said, looking back at him a bit."Yea." He said, getting up a little."What do i do?" I said tearing up trying not to cry cus i was done with crying for today "well give me your pros and cons about all of your options and ill give u my honest thoughts" he says sitting up looking at me "well ive decided i dont want to do adoption i just hate the idea of that" i said now getting up to look at him properly "okay keep going" he says to me giving me his full attention "okay for abortion i dont like the idea of getting rid of a future baby they could be the cure to cancer or the next kim k" i said "okay 1 do you really want your kid being the next kim k.." he says "i guess not" i say looking down "okay but you make valid ponits but if there is a cure to cancer and stuff someone else will find out about it if there is a cure and yea its a baby ima be real with you ava you can barely take care of yourself you cant take care of a baby even if me and matt and chris will be there with you every step of the way but if keeping it is what you really wanna do ill support you same with matt and chris" he looked up at me i thanked him and went out for a walk to clear my mind and at the same time think about it i went to the park i missed being a kid and running around the park care free stress free thats when it clicked i am still a kid i can still be one i want to enjoy my teenage years and thats gonna start now im going to get an abortion as much as it will hurt me physically or mental and just be happy and a teenager the rest of the time i have to do it i mean my brothers still act like kids and theyre 20 i got up from the bench and walked home i went up to my room and booked an appointment

AN: Sorry, i was gone for so long and sorry for the shitty chapter