Avery Sturniolo ♡

this is a good idea... right?

BIG TW!

I was done its been a week and i had became just super depressed I thought about dying every minute of everyday it sucked but it didnt occur to me that i could just die i wasnt ready to live and wasnt ready to die but honestly my life is completely i dont know what im doing everything sucks i decided a last day with my brothers and kaya would be the best thing i could give them so i started playing for the next day then went to sleep.

When i woke up in the morning i put in my good mood face which was hard because i am planning to kill myself later and i know my brothers will probably see right through me but its worth a shot anyways i get up and go to the kitchen i make french toast and text kaya some cute good morning text like i use to do when i wasnt depressed. Matt got woken up by the smell of food and came into the kitchen clearly confused. i didn't say anything and just smiled, to which he smiled back at, and then my phone buzzed with a text from kaya

Kayaa 🐼❤️

Kaya🐼❤️: Well, this is new. Are you alright?

Ava✨️: yea never better!

I mean, it's not a total lie. i was feeling happy i wouldn't have to wake up tomorrow, but it still feels wrong.

Shortly after Matt woke up chirs and Nick, did we all ate and talked about things which, during the whole time, Nick, Matt, and chris gave each other the look. i dont think they know what im planning, tho. After breakfast i told matt i was going to kayas and went to her house we watched a movie,talked and madeout it was great and im happy with it being the last now i need to have the rest of the day be great for my brothers then ive served my purpose. I went home and played fortnite with all of them and watched LOTS of movie filmed a car video played bored games it was fun and all but the less time i had with them the worse and more scared i felt i knew this is what i wanted tho. Right?... now it was 11 at night and i knew it was time my brothers were all in their rooms and i got the biggest knife from the kitchen and went to my room then into the bathroom that was connected to my room and went inside the medication cabinet and got my Anti depressants went inside the bathtub and slit both my wrist super deep they were gushing blood i was in awful pain but tried my best not to make a sound then i took all the pills in case sliting my wrist didnt work and left out my letters to nick, chirs, matt mom and dad and kaya on the counter i felt bad that one of them would have to find me but it was to late to turn back so i just sat in the tub waiting for the magic to happen.

Matts pov: i woke up at 6 in the morning i dont know why i just felt there was something i needed to do i was confused i never wake up at 6 but i decided to get up and take ava out to breakfast but when i went into avas room i didnt see her her room looked dead almost i knocked on the bathroom door and no answer i knock a couple more times till i decided to grab the key and go in. When i went in, the tubs' curtin was closed, and there were notes on the sinks counter. Each letter had a name on the front. My heart dropped this wasnt what i thought i was... right? I looked at the letter with my name on it and began to read. Oh no it was what i thought i immediately ran upstairs slipping around the slippery floor to nicks room and started yell crying "NICK NICK WAKE UP" I was Hyperventilating praying that there was nothing behind the baths curtain "what. Omg Matt, calm down. What happened..." Nick says, jumping out of bed just then chris comes walking up the stairs "whats happening? " chris says, running over to me and Nick."i think ava killed herself..." everyone stops talking faces cold as i hold up my letter and we all run downstairs when we get to her room i ponit to the bathroom where we all stare at the letters and the closed shower curtain "we should pull it.." chris says, walking forward. we all agree and walk towards the bathtub and pull the curtain to the side

The last thing i remember is all of us freaking out and crying.

AN: it has been great writing this story, but now it's done. i also wanted to thank you for 2.19k reads of something like that that crazy thank you all and goodbye 👋 ❤️

P.s. This is not proofread