Avery Sturniolo ♡

fresh start

(If u want a song for this chapter
Womb, melanie martinez)

I went to bed that night feeling happy almost which was werid for 2 reasons 1 i dont feel happy usually 2 why be happy over such a horrible thing the next morning i had my appointment (i know it takes awhile but i dont feel like writing all the middle) now it was telling my brothers i knew they would support me but i was still anxious first i got ready for the day did my makeup got dressed this was the first time i really tried to do anything with myself in awhile sk you could expect when i walked downstairs my brothers where shocked nick was cooking but when he saw me his jaw dropped a bit i sat down and looked at them "i got an appointment at 3 matt can u drive me?" I said getting my phone out of my back pocket "um- yea" matt said "snap out of it guys" i said putting my phone down on the table "sorry its just werid seeing you so ready for the day" nick said going back to cooking "well i just woke up on the right side of the bed i guess" i said "so is this like the appointment like the- well you know what i mean.." Nick says, handing me a plate "yea it is, and im ready for it. im ready for a fresh start, a new me.." i said, looking down at a bit overthinking a bit "good i think it's for the best!" Chris says patting me on the head i ate and went up to my room i had 4 hours before my appointment so i Decided to do something i havent done in awhile and no not self harm text kaya i wasnt mad at her i just was dealing with alot

Ava ❤️: um hey kaya sorry i haven't texted. I've been dealing with a lot, as you probably know

Kaya 🐼:np babe, im always here for you. Do you need help with anything

Ava ❤️: No, i got everything figured out. i think im actually happy..

Kaya 🐼: That's great! Im so happy for you

After that i asked kaya if she wanted to call and for the next 2 hours i got her up to date she ovi supported me and when we hung up with her i went downstairs and hung out with my brothers "shit we should probably go matt." I said looking at my phone "oh yea alright" matt said getting up nick and chris were gonna come for the ride matt and chris in the front me and nick in the back i was super scared and honestly not ready for this step but this was the first step to a fresh start and thats what i wanted nick noticed that i was nervous "you'll be okay you can always quit if you dont want to do this" he rubbing my shoulder "im okay i want this." I said pulling myself together it was a 10 minute drive until we got there it was so fucking scary "you got this. okay?" Nick said looking out the car door well i was getting out "its okay i got this" i went inside and waited for them to call my name i felt so judged here a 16 year old in a planned parenthood it was awful my doctor was male i hated that i got on the bed and he got to work (i know kinda know how it works but im dont wanna anything wrong so) half way threw it was really painful and i guess he got annoyed "if you werent such a whore this would have to happen" he said getting frustrated i was shocked "that exactly what my rapist said" after that comment he just got quiet it was kinda funny anyways we finished and i went to the car "how did it go kid.." Matt says, looking back at the back seat "well i did it.." I said i felt guilty and worse of all felt like it was my fault what happened "lets go to McDonald's" said matt as he started to drive i layed on nicks lap nap started tearing up he rubbed my back we got to McDonald's and i got a happy meal for 2 reasons being pregnant ypu gain weight obviously and i just wasnt hungry but i knew if i got nothing they would get worried and thats not what i want we got home and watched inside out and ate i went up to my room and just cried for a bit nick came in and held me..

AN: 2 or 1 more chapter(s) btw this is not proof read also i dont know that much about abortions so dont come for me ALSO thanks for over 1.k reads ❤️