Past and Present

8

We're back with the Chinese Grand Prix this weekend since 2019 and to make it even more chaotic it's a Sprint Weekend as well! Who you betting at?

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"So do you still have the heart eyes for Charles?" Kelly bluntly ask me as she flashes a smile at me.

I look at her and chuckled softly as I shake my head in disbelief by what she just asked. How do I put this in words? Let's just say that Kelly is one of the many people who's pushing me to finally open my heart to someone else. And by someone else meaning they all have one person in mind. As if something would magically happen between Lando and I. I sip my lemonade and take a glance at the boys who are basking in the sun.

After the messy lunch earlier, I locked myself in a room. Kelly here convinced me to stay at the sun deck with her instead. So now, I am deliberately not paying attention to Charles right now, even though I can see and hear him having fun with the others.

I heave out a sigh and smiled sheepishly before answering Kelly, "honestly? I don't know anymore." I take a sip again of my lemonade before continuing, "Seeing Charles as soon as I got home..." I take a look at the boys again and watch Charles laugh with them.

Kelly noticed where I am looking at so she takes a glance as well before looking back at me again, "what, Sky?"

"Can I be completely honest with you right now?" I take my eyes off of the boys and looked at her seriously; she looks at me a little confused, "and I don't want Max to know anything about it."

Her mouth formed a 'O' and nodded, "oh we're having that kind of talk now, is it? Sure."

I nodded at her as I pursed my lips to form a straight line before heaving out a sigh. Kelly's a little older than the rest us and ever since I went to Minnesota to live on my own, she became like this big sister I never had. I found her advises to me pretty helpful and insightful; I love how she just listens to me whenever I yap about certain things that I cannot yap to Lando or Max or to anyone else because I know for sure that they would simply not understand me. And because of that she knows certain things that she can ask me bluntly anytime, like for instance this thing with Charles. Since I had a talk with her about it and that I am getting confused and that I'm just starting to think that getting back together to Charles is merely just out of obligation for the sake of Addison.

"It felt... different. Like I just know that he and Addison needs to meet soon, that's all." I answered truthfully. I shrugged and focused back at Kelly, "All I feel is this guilt of hiding his child from him. But the heart eyes like you said? I don't feel it anymore."

Kelly keeps the smile she has for me and hugged me, "then maybe Charles really isn't for you then, Sky." I raised an eyebrow at her and she continued speaking, "you simply just have a permanent bond with him in a form of a beautiful child."

"Trust me, I know." Kelly remarked and chuckled after. Kelly's obviously talking from her own experience, I look at her and she actually look happier now that she's with Max. You see, Max is not Penelope's biological father. But Kelly maintains a close relationship with Penelope's father since they agreed to be co-parents and maybe someday I will get to co-parent Addison with Charles.

But now, it's just me and Addison for the mean time.

"I'm actually thankful that you came into Max's life you know. He's been smiling a lot and having fun ever since you and P came into picture." I complimented her while smiling happily. Because it's the truth, Max never had the best childhood and it usually shows but now? He looks happier.