Helping You...

Find Away Out (Part 2)

⚠️WARNING ⚠️
-ANXIETY ATTACK
-SELF-HATE
-DARK THOUGHTS
-SUICIDE THOUGHTS
-SELF-HARM

-YOUR POV AND AT THE MEETING HALL-

As you were standing with your captain.
The air in the meeting room felt heavy.
(Why do I have to be here....I'm not even a lieutenant.)
You thought to yourself.
"Everyone. We have grim news....Captain Sosuke Aizen has been murdered..."
Spoke head captain Yamamoto.
Murmurs and gasps were in the air.
Momo wasn't their.
(What happened to Momo?)
"Someone in the 13 court guard squads is a traitor..."
Yamamoto said.
(Traitor?)
You thought the Seireitei was safe.
The thought of a high ranking member....betraying his or her people.
Scares you greatly.
(I'm definitely escaping tonight...)
You don't care about planning anymore.
Your just going to have to book it.
"And we also announce that Rukia Kuchiki...will be executed in 20 days..."
Yamamoto added.
Then the room went silent.
(Wait...Rukia. No....it's probably a different Rukia...but her last name is Kuchiki....)
You took a little glance at the 6th captain.
Byakuya was staring at you.
Which you immediately looked at the ground.
(Why did I do that?)
You mentally groaned.
"We might have a clue on why the enemy is here.
Someone must've told that the queen of souls is here..."
Yamamoto spoke.
Everyone turned their heads towards you.
Anxiety began to set in.
(Why could've died like a normal soul....)
You thought to yourself.
"Captain Hitsugaya. You must take extra care of her."
The head captain ordered.
"As you wish..."
Toshiro bowed.
(Don't worry. You won't have to take care of me for long....)
You could tell he wasn't thrilled of babysitting you more.
"This meeting is adjourned."
With that Yamamoto banged his cane.
Slowly the captains and lieutenants left.
Of course you and Toshiro ans Rangiku left the meeting room last.

-TOSHIRO POV-

(I already have my hands full with Momo....now I have to watch her extra....)
The stress was getting to me.
Maybe I shouldn't have volunteered to take [Your Name] in my squad.
I should've stayed silent.
We made it to my office.
[Your Name] is pretty quiet.
Well she is always.
But this quiet was different....it was like a foreboding quiet.

-YOUR POV-

(I can't.....handle this...)
You could feel your whole body tensing up.
Heart beating fast.
Your mind was in complete shambles.
(Calm....down....[Your Name].....calm down....)
You repeated the thoughts.
(Maybe once I escape....I'll take my life....)
Then you accidentally bumped into the captains back.
"WOULD YOU WATCH IT!"
You immediately flinched.
"You know what. I'm going to ask the head captain to reassign you to another squad! I'm already sick of tired of taking cares useless person like you! I should've just stayed quiet!
Captain Zaraki was right you are a useless queen!"
Toshiro huffed.
"CAPTAIN!"
Rangiku shouted at her captain.
For some reason...something shattered inside my soul.

-TOSHIRO POV-
(Shit.....I went too far....)
I've realized what I have done and looked at [Your Name.]
Her eyes were almost glossy....
Like she was about to cry.
"[L-last Name].....I...."
She immediately ran pass me with out looking at me.
I covered my mouth.
Realized she'll be more withdrawn because of what I said.
"Captain what you did was unacceptable."
Rangiku scolded me.

-YOUR POV-

(I can't I can't I can't I can't!)
You've ran full speed to your room.
Every part of your being was shattering like glass statue.
The tears that you are trying so hard to hold in...
Are seeping out.
"Awww....what's wrong?
Did little miss useless mess up...."
Chuckled the dark inner demon.
(Not....now....)
Once you have made it to your room.
You immediately went in and shut the door.
Then you went to your drawer and grabbed the huge piece of broken mirror from the night before.
You didn't care if Mizuma was going to sense this and pulled your sleeves up and cut deep into your arm.
For some reason.....you don't feel the stingy pain.
Maybe....it's because your slowly losing you emotions.