Helping You...

Lines On Skin

⚠️WARNING ⚠️
-Self-Harm
-Self-hate
-Swearing

-YOUR POV-
As you walked out of the restroom.
You accidentally bumped into something....or more like someone.
Which cause you to drop the pieces of the mirror shards.
"Oops! Sorry [Your Name!] Are you alright!"
It was Rangiku.
"Yes. Sorry."
You apologized and bowed.
"No no, I'm the one who should apologize. I bumped into you."
Rangiku waved her hands.
Then she looked down and saw the shattered mirror shards.
"What happened?"
Rangiku asked.
"Oh....I....tripped on my feet and accidentally slammed my hand to hard on the mirror while getting out...."
You lied.
Hopefully that she'll believe you.
"Ah! I see. You need to be more careful!"
Rangiku gently patted your head.
As you were about to pick up the shards of mirror you've dropped.
"Here let me. I bumped into you."
Rangiku stopped you.
"Ah...no need. I'm the one who accidentally broke the mirror and plus I wasn't watching where I was going."
You said.
"Ah Ah! Nope not taking no an answer. Now off to bed!"
Rangiku point her finger.
(Might as well....give up then...)
You sighed in defeat.
"Thank you Rangiku."
And bowed to her.

-MOMENTS LATER-

Once you've made it to your room.
You carefully took out the big piece of broken mirror.
Out of your kimono.
Unfortunately it didn't leave any cuts on the side of your abdomen.
(I....wonder....can I cut with my bond with Mizuma for a moment....)
You thought to yourself.
Mizuma did say you were connected both mind and soul.
[I can help with that....]
Spoke the inner demon.
(Seriously.....you. Fine I'll bite....how?)
You grimace at the thought from getting help from your inner demon.
[You just gotta focus really hard. And then you'll see a thread that leads to Mizuma.]
The inner demon explained.
(Gee....can you be more specific inner demon....)
You sighed mentally.
But then you closed your eyes and focused.
Then you opened your eyes.
There was a water like thread.
It was leading to your Zanpakuto.
Before you could even touch it.
The thread evaporated into thin air.
It took you by surprise.
[Well then. I guess Mizuma beat you to it.
I guess she needs a break from your useless ass.
Or better yet....she might've left ya for good.]
Your inner demon taunted.
Mizuma didn't seem the type to leave or abandon you.
Maybe she had a reason.
But then again.
The inner demon managed to brake your spirits.
Then you remember the piece of mirror shard your holding.
(Ah...I've held on it to tightly...I have cut my hand.)
You sighed and lifted your sleeves.
Showing your bare arms.
(Here goes...)
You placed the shard on your skin and slid it across your left arm.
(That's....one.)
Then another.
(That's two...)
You winced a little at the third cut.
Because you've accidentally cut to deep.
(Suck it up....)
You continued your cutting.
About 10 cuts later.
You have decided to stop.
The blood dripped onto the flood creating a small pool of blood.
"Shit.....gotta clean this up."
You cursed.
Then you felt Mizuma presence all of sudden.
(Mizuma?)
You were unsure at the moment.
{Yes dear? Did I scare you?}
Mizuma asked.
(A.....little...)
You admitted.
{I'm sorry. I didn't think you would notice.}
Mizuma said apologetically.
(Oh....it's fine. Must be important for you to cut connection like that.....)
You said in your mind.
{Is there something the matter? You....seem....sad.
Did I do that. I'm so sorry [Your Name.]
I'll let you know next time.}
Mizuma said.
You shook your head.
(No no. Your allowed to have your time....it's.....just.....never mind. I'm really tired. Good night Mizuma.)
You decided not to tell her how you feel.
{Oh....alright. Good night dear.}
Mizuma said.
With that you both ended the conversation.
But before you go to bed.
You cleaned up the floor with your sheet.
Since that was the only thing available.
Luckily the blanket was thick enough for warmth.
"How....am I gonna sneak this off?"
You said quietly.