Deep in my heart

Chapter 1: A Reason for Everything

It was a frigid spring morning as Elaenna pulled into the parking lot on campus. After grabbing her things, she headed to her first class with her two friends, Gabriela and Patricia. Gabriela was an albino but beautiful blonde girl who although she was petite and didn't have any distinct curves or very good skin, she had this innocent and sweet personality that seemed to draw many of the boys in. As for Patricia, she was the complete opposite; she was very tall and thick, with golden skin and black hair, and her personality was fierce. She was of Hispanic descent and often played hard to get and had nearly all the boys eating out of the palm of her hands.

 As for Elaenna; despite standing at 5'7, with reddish-golden skin, and small but perky breasts. The rest of her body had curves but she always dressed fancy but also modestly to avoid men approaching her. Despite being of Native American descent, she had a bit of an accent that was so hot to most guys. After grabbing a seat in the back of the classroom and taking out her books, she was approached by this guy. He smiled at her and said, "Hey Elaenna, I know this is random and you barely know me but I was wondering if you'd like to go to the graduation dance next week". 

Elaenna said"Get the fuck away from me right now" However the guy didn't listen and instead, put his hand on her shoulder and said, "Pretty please...I mean after graduation next week we won't see each other anymore either way so how about it?". She stood up, took out a brass knuckle, and punched him clean across the face, knocking him onto the floor but she didn't stop there. She climbed leaned over and punched him in the chest and then in the balls before coming back to his face as he screamed for her to stop. After a few more seconds, she finally stopped and spit on him before saying" How dare you touch me you dirty bastard...you men are utterly worthless, in fact, the best thing for someone like you to do would be to kill yourself...I hate you all, all you do is lie and use people but I'm not falling for that shit". 

She kicked him in the side and left the classroom and headed out to the cafeteria to eat as bystanders ran to help the guy. After returning to class and finding that guy gone she took her seat; completely ignoring all the dirty looks she received because in no way did she care. In fact, this wasn't the first time she had assaulted a guy, this was a typical occurrence whenever men approached her or spoke to her. Due to this she spent most of her life around women however she was very much into guys but she was living in self-denial brought on by her childhood.

Despite being born into a rich family, having anything she asked for and the best resources and education money could buy, it was not without its downsides. Her parents owned a mega company but her father did most of the traveling work and her mother handled the bookkeeping and accounting. Things seemed okay until around the time that she turned 10 years old. It was around that time that her mother's hair turned grey and she began drinking and exhibiting signs of mental instability. On top of that, her father was always gone the majority of the time meaning everything, including raising Elaenna fell on her and she just couldn't take the stress combined with the loneliness of her husband not being around.

Her mother never lashed out at her, never blamed her for anything, instead she would break dishes or windows or the TV sometimes in a fit of rage. Unfortunately, one night when she was 14, her mother had reached her limit and had taken her own life. Seeing her mother's mangled corpse in the car that night was something that she would live with for the rest of her life and would begin the hatred she held for men. When she saw her father again the day after, she broke down and yelled: "W-why weren't you there...why weren't you there when she needed you dad...I hate you!!". 

After the funeral, she went to live with her aunt for a bit and she asked her aunt why her dad wasn't there. Her aunt simply says out of anger, "Sweetie, you need to understand that no matter how nice men seem, they will use you and push you to the side like a toy. With you being rich and beautiful, you need to stay on guard. Don't trust a single one because once they come into your life and you start to change they abandon you, leave you high and dry, and make endless excuses. Your mother passed because your father paid no attention to the fact that even though she smiled and said it was fine. He failed to notice the signs because he was too self-absorbed and egotistical over his company and because of that your life is forever changed".

Over the next few years, she would hear this same rhetoric from her aunt which deepened her hatred for men. She would go to all-girls private schools and avoid places where men hung out when not at school. Unfortunately for college, there were no all-girls facilities so she would just have to deal with it if she wanted to eventually get her inheritance. By the time she turned 19, she had finally forgiven and started talking to her father but she refused to speak to the woman he got married to. Despite forgiving her father, she resolved that she would never allow herself to fall in love with a man and allow a chance for herself to suffer the way her mother did or worse.

Now at age 21 She still sees love as nothing but chains that allow another person a chance to screw you over and she wasn't ready for that not now or ever but unfortunately in the blink of an eye, things were about to change drastically for her. After class, Elaenna headed to her second class and afterward went to eat lunch where she was joined by her two friends and they both looked anything but happy.