Naka kulong ako sa isang kwarto kasama ang anak ko. Diko sila kayang makita. Nakatakot akong maramdaman ulit ang pakiramdam ng galit, takot at sakit. Everytime I recall what happened I get shaken in my whole body.
"Mi piley!" Ang anak ko at humagikgik.
Naluha ako sa reaction nya. Napaka inosente ng anak ko para maramdaman nya ang ganitong klase ng buhay.
"Mi?" Nagtatakang tawag nya sa akin.
I started to walk away, I'm shaking in fear and nervous. I can't breath. Uma atras akong umiiling habang naka tingin sa anak ko.
"AHHHHHH." Bigla nalang akong napa sigaw.
Biglang pumasok si Jashley at hinablot ang anak namin. Dumating din sina mama at Tita Maliah. They all look worried.
"Kunin mo si Rizen, Jashley. Kasama si Rizen sa gusto nyang takasan na problema."
"I want to talk to her."
"You can't, she will not listen."
Napa takip ako sa tenga dahil sa pag uusap nila. Ayaw ko sila marinig! Ayaw ko silang makita!
"Hey." Napa singhap ako sa humawak sa mga kamay ko.
It's her.
"I'm Zef, I'll help you to get rid of it." Mahinang sabi nya na parang hinehele ako. Nanginginig ako sa takot habang tinitignan sya.
"I feel suffocate here. G-usto kong umalis dit-o." Umiiyak na paki usap ko.
"We will. I'll help you. Do you want to live with me?" Marahan na tanong pa nya.
Kahit nanginginig ako sa takot ay tumango ako ng mabilis. I held her hands.
"Yes please." Kinahabahang sabi ko.
"Okay, fix your self. We will move out." Ngiti nya sa akin at pina tayo ako.
Mabilis akong pumasok sa cr. Naluha ako ng makita ko ang sarili ko sa salamin. Parang umikot ang mundo ko. Wala sa sariling pinag babato ko ang mga gamit na mahawakan ko sa salamin.
"I CAN STILL SEE THAT FACE! AHHHH!" Sigaw ko.
"Damn." I felt someone hugged me from the back before my sight went dark.
JASHLEY RAVAL
"She keep hysterically." Zef said after Rixen collapse on her arms.
I rushed on them and carry Rixen. Nilapag ko sya sa kama at pinunasan ang basang luha sa pisngi nya.
May kumatok sa pintuan kaya napalingon ako doon. Nakita kong sumilip sina Tita Nalia at Mama. Ng makita nila kami ay pumasok na sila agad at naka sunod sina Vash at Jordan sa likod nila.
"What's happening on her?" Bakas sa boses ni Tita Nalia ang pag aalala.
"Those are the effects of PTSD. She needs time to heal it." Zef said.
"Pano? Pano sya nagkaroon ng ganyan? Ang ayos ayos palang nya nung isang araw." Sabi pa ni Mama.
"Mix of emotions."
"I can't understand. Kanina lang ay masaya ko syang naka salubong, bibili lang daw ng damit ng mag ama nya. I didn't know it will turn like this." Vash said.
"People who experience PTSD may have persistent, frightening thoughts and memories of the events." Zef said.
"According to the story of hers, I understand how she got PTSD. Someone with PTSD often relives the traumatic event through nightmares and flashbacks, and may experience feelings of isolation, irritability and guilt."
"Because of the recovery of her amnesia, she keeps on seeing the flashbacks of accident, she avoid reminders of the trauma she has and she fear on everything that reminds of her pain." Zef explain.
"Oh my god." Napa takip sa bibig si Tita Nalia sa gulat.
I clenched my fist. My eyes watered in frustration.
Why do you have to be hurt this way baby?
"You have such knowledge about this." My mom said.
"Because I already experienced it. I have it before, after giving birth." Zef said softly.
Our attention fixed on her. I saw on my peripheral view, Jordan shock and it immediately change into anger.
"I-i ahm I treated it on my own. I help my own self, because no one will." Zef smile on us.
"That's why, I'm suggesting to help Rix. I'll help her to cure it. It's hard but we will make it there." She explained.
"I can help her-" she cut me off.
"No one around here can help her." She said seriously.
"What do you mean?" Nagtatakong tanong ko.
"PTSD recovery is definitely possible with the right treatment. If she keeps on seeing you all, her PTSD will get worse." She said.
I couldn't stop my chuckled. Is she serious? Tumayo ako at tinignan sya ng matalim.
"What do you mean by that?" Galit na tanong ko.
"You all reminding her trauma. She needs to recover it." Sabi nya ulit.
Galit ko sana syang sasagutin ng pigilan ako ni Jordan. Vash nod while looking at me. Tita Nalia look at me hopelessly. Mama showed me her sadness. Umiling ako.
No, I know where will this lead.
"She needs to move out and heal her self. I'll help her." Sabi nya sa akin. Umiling ako habang nanginginig kong ina alis ang kamay ni Jordan na naka pigil sa dibdib ko.
"You have to trust me Jashley. This will help the both of you." Sabi nya ulit.
"Look at your woman." Jordan said. Napatingin ako sa natugulog na si Rixen.
"Do you want to see her this way? You have to fucking help her. Free her for the meantime, You cause so much pain on her. Let her heal." Jordan authority tone filled the room.
"What abou-t ou-r baby?" I asked shaking.
"Alagaan mo ang anak mo dahil kasama sya sa magpapa alala ng trauma nya. Don't worry Jashley, as soon as possible I'll help her heal. You have to trust me dahil mahirap ang may PTSD, It will make you crazy and increased risk of violence. That's why I'm here to help her." She explained.
Muli akong napa upo sa kama kung saan naka higa si Rixen. I touch her face and kiss her lips.
"Baby, I'll watch from the distant. Please recover faster. We will wait for you." Bulong ko matapos halikan ang labi nya.
Tumayo ako at umambang lalabas na ng kwarto.
"Don't try to run away Zerefina, I'll keep my eye on you. Be back as soon as she recover." Jordan said seriously before he left us.
I saw the pain on her eyes. She smiled on me sadly.
"Please take care of her. I love her, I'll do everything for her." I said seriously.
"Don't worry Jashley, aalagaan ko sya." Ngumiti sya sa akin.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Heartless Obsession
Storie d'amoreRAVAL SERIES 1 THE HEARTLESS OBSESSION (ON-GOING) She was sell to be his property, Rixen Gutierez is The Heartless Obsession
